Just Let Me Know (Nam-Joon X Reader)

Chapter 17

*Jungkook pov*

      I decided I had to talk to Rap Mon hyung about Y/N.... I feel so bad for what I did... But yet I don't... And I need to explain before he finds out for himself... I'll just tell him the truth...

     "Jungkook!" Rap Mon yelled out to me and I stopped in my tracks, in front of my bedroom door. "Y-yeah?" He walked up next to me, "Can we talk?" Why does he want to talk? "S-sure. Yah." I gave a nervous smile, and we both entered my room.
      I hit the light on and shut the door behind us. "So? What'd you wanna talk 'bout?" He sat down on my bed, "Y/N." My heart stopped, why does he wanna talk about her. "W-what about... Y/N?" He motioned for me to sit down, and I did as he wanted.
     He softly sighed, "I like Y/N. I really like her. And..." He paused, now looking at me. "And I don't know what to do." My mouth was dry, I was so afraid to speak. "W-well... Maybe... Talk t-to her...? I'm not to good with girls..." I didn't want him to talk to her, because I wanted to... And that only made me feel worse.
    
      "I know I should talk to her... But I have this weird feeling something happened. And she might not like me back..." Oh... I have to tell him... "Well... You see...-" "I think V likes her also." He cut me off and sighed even more. "Well you see... I think so to... But... There is no telling who she likes..." He shrugged and looked at me, "But still... This feeling of something happened..."

      "Hyung.... I already knew you liked her... I over heard you and Tae talking about it.... I'm sorry..." His eyes widened, "You did? Shit...! Then you know V told me he doesn't like her." I nodded. "Ok, but his eyes said something different." There was silence for a while.
      I finally spoke, "Maybe he said that... So not to hurt your feelings... That he thinks you deserve her... That maybe, it wasn't right for him to like her knowing his hyung does to..." He shrugged, "Maybe. But still... What if she likes him instead? What if he decided he does wanna date h-" "Stop it! He wouldn't do that to you!"
     I wrapped my arms around my hyung And hot tears stained my face, I couldn't hold them back. "Jungkook? Why... Why do you cry?" I hugged him tighter, "I'm sorry hyung..." He hugged me back, "For what?" I still didn't let go, afraid if I did... He wouldn't hug me ever again.

      "I did something horrible to you..." I again hugged him tighter. Not able to let go. "What? What are you talking about?" The tears kept coming, I felt horrible. I kissed her, even though I knew Rap Mon likes her. "I don't want you to hate me!"
      He finally pulled me off and held me by the shoulders. "What! I could never hate you! No matter what! Now tell me what you did." His voice lowered and he stared me in the eyes. "I...." My voice broke and so did my gaze. "I kissed Y/N... Even though I knew... You liked her..." He let go of my shoulders. "What?" His voice didn't sound angry, but disappointed. "You... You kissed her?"
     My tears began again, hearing him say it hurt worse. Because I don't regret it. I don't at all, I'd do it again. But not to hurt him, because I like Y/N. "You, you kissed her? Only once right? Tell me it won't happen again! Tell me you didn't mean to." Tears began to flood his eyes. And I just sat there, not saying anything.

      "Tell me you didn't mean it! That you wouldn't do it again! That... You wouldn't hurt me like that...!" "I'm sorry... But... I... I like her... I...-" He stood up and headed to the door. Stopping and turning before leaving, "I wouldn't have cared... If you just told me, you wouldn't hurt me like that again... But..." He stopped, and tears filled his eyes once more.

"Good night... Jungkook..." He shut the door. And there was silence. Painful silence.....

A/N

     Sorry for the late update! Writers block! It's stupid, but here we are! This chapter isn't as good as I'd like it to be, but I hope you enjoy!