“I can’t do that, Jack.”
“Of course you can,” he smiles weakly.
“You want me to just forget about Finn and start things up with you? That isn’t going to work. I can’t hurt him like that.”
“Finn will be bitter at first, but I think we can help him understand,” Jack’s voice is full of hope and it’s breaking my heart.
“Jack… I don’t want to hurt Finn like that.”
The pools of hope inside of Jack’s eyes slowly fade away, “So you want to be with him more?”
“You signed up for this!” I exclaim, trying to avoid his question, “You can’t just change the rules. Things happened… and now I’m with Finn. I won’t hurt him like that… I don’t want to be that girl.”
“You already are that girl, Ash!”
“Only because of you!”
“Only because I like you so much. I thought I could handle being your little secret, but I can’t do it,” Jack sounds defeated.
“Well whose fault is that?” I ask in a bitchier tone than intended.
Jack looks away, confused and desolate. I don’t know what to say. The radio is playing softly and I can barely hear the music. I feel absolutely awful. Jack’s shoulders are hung low and his perfect face is molded into a saddened expression. He’s genuinely upset… and I’m not ready to face this kind of reality.
All I’ve been doing since I arrived in California is fool around and forget that I’m still Ashley Cooper, the book worm and boyfriend-less college student. I’ve toyed with Jack and Finn’s feelings, convincing myself that it won’t last longer than my vacation. But now I’m too involved with the Harries to just let them go… I’m caught in the reality of my own actions.
Eventually Jack puts the car in drive and we pull out of the parking lot. His eyes are focused on the road while mine are still locked on him. I just want him to say something… anything at all.
“Jack?” I finally speak up.
“I understand that you would rather be with Finn,” he says in a shockingly fragile voice, “I’m not going to bother you anymore, okay? We’re over.”
“But Jack…”
“I don’t want to hide behind Finn!” he shouts and I jump in my seat.
There’s a short pause and then he continues, “You’ve made your choice, Ash. I’m not your secret anymore. I’m just your boyfriend’s brother.”
“Finn isn’t my boyfriend,” I correct.
“Oh, sorry,” he says sarcastically, “Did I say boyfriend? I meant fuck-buddy.”
“He isn’t just a fuck-buddy, either!”
“Oh come on! That’s all we are to you… identical fuck-buddies.”
Tears start to swell in my eyes, “That isn’t true!”
“You don’t have any actual feelings towards us. You fuck whichever twin you’re with and that’s it. There’s no emotion behind any of your actions.”
“You’re being an asshole again, Jack,” I say with watery eyes.
He sighs in frustration, “Then maybe you should go run back into Finn’s arms.”
Jack’s words are full of so much hate that I can’t stand them anymore. I feel so unwanted and judged by him… he’s never made me feel this way. Staying in the car with him is not an option.
“Let me out,” I demand.
“What?”
“Let me out of the car! Pull over!”
Jack does as I instruct, pulling into the parking lot of a run-down bar. I hop out of the car right as tears slip down my cheeks. My fingertips wipe them away and I hope Jack didn’t see them.
“I don’t want to leave you here,” Jack’s voice yells after me.
“Fuck off, Jack,” my words make the air around me colder.
I hear his car door slam shut and then heavy footsteps following mine. Jack grabs me by the wrist and turns me around so that our eyes lock. I try to pull my wrist free but he squeezes even harder.
“How can you be mad at me? After all you’ve done to fuck with me and Finn?”
“I never intended to fuck around with the two of you! I don’t want to hurt either of you… and I do care about the both of you! You’re being an insensitive prick! I’m just trying to make sure Finn isn’t crushed to find out that I’ve been screwing you behind his back! And I can’t believe you want to hurt him like that… just because it will make you happy.”
Jack clenches his jaw in silence. His beautiful green eyes are burning through me, so I yank my wrist free and turn away from him. My boots stomp against the wooden floor of the bar, but no one can hear them over the loud music. Smoke is lingering in the air and the entire place is consumed with the smell of alcohol.
My eyes start to feel hot again, so I quickly make my way closer to the girl’s bathroom. I don’t want anyone to see me cry. The inside of the bathroom isn’t as filthy as I expected. It’s small and the bright lighting makes my eyes hurt.
I stare at myself in the mirror before the door swings open again. I can see Jack’s reflection in the mirror and my heart starts to beat faster. What the hell is he doing in here? Jack grabs my shoulder and rotates my body so that he can plant his lips on mine. I’m caught off guard so I try to push him away from me, but it doesn’t work.
He pins me against the wall and deepens the kiss, making me feel warm. Jack’s eyes are filled with a lustful desperation that I don’t expect. His mouth trails down past my jaw and along my neck, and his hands slowly lift the bottom of my dress.
I start to rub his crotch while his tongue forcefully enters my mouth. I unbutton his pants and slide my hand inside, causing Jack to moan heatedly. With my other hand, I undo a few of the top buttons on his shirt, revealing some of his muscular torso.
Jack’s pants drop to his ankles and my underwear is thrown to the ground. His strong hands grab me and lift me off of the ground so that I can wrap my legs around him. Jack starts to move inside of me roughly and harder than usual. His perfect teeth sink into the side of my neck and my shoulder, making me shudder in pure, raw lust.
Jack’s anger towards me has manifested into one last, heated moment full of longing and sadness. While I’m panting heavily and trying to hold back my squeals, Jack’s smooth, seductive voice whispers in my ear, “After this… we’re done.”
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Travel (A Jack and Finn Harries Fanfiction)
फैनफिक्शन"It’s something that should have never happened. It’s so hard for me to regret it, though. Everything about him was perfect. Everything about him still is perfect." Ashley is hesitant to travel back to California, the place she used to call home. Bu...
