before mimi

red

one month later

The more I got to know ben, the more awkward I saw he was. He wasnt actually the best around people. His good looks defiantly blinded the girls from his awkwardness. He often times acted as if he was caught in uncomfortable situations and he acted like a lost puppy. It made him adorable. 

I had come over again..to get some as normal. But he has tried to push this hanging out agenda on me. i didnt want to necessarily say no-but I couldn't hang out with him.

 Although I would be around him, I kept my distance. I couldn't grow attached with this being senior year. These things never lasted.

He always tried to find reasons for me to just hang out with him but I would hardly accept those. At the end of the day, im still me; an extremely independent person that needs space and I wasnt going to allow my thoughts and his actions take over my rational side. I had to continuously remind myself that a deal is a deal. My monthly friend made an appearance last week meaning I hadnt been physical with him last week at all. He tried to convince me otherwise but I had never done it on my period. 

"well why cant you come over?" He asked stuffing his hands in his pockets. His kaki pants made me want to hurl the way the were half stuffed in his timberlands. His ridiculous patagonia vest had a stain- most likey beer and his cap was on backwards hiding the curls at the top of his head. I just took in how ridiculous he looked begging for sex. 

"because." i started now searching in my backpack for my keys. "im on my period damnit. you happy?" I said now annoyed. He texted me earlier to come over and when I kept saying no, he came to find me coming out of my computer class. "so.....so what?" he asked now entering in my personal space. I looked up from my bag and froze him in his spot. Taking my hand i pushed him back a bit. He knew I hated people in my personal space.

"what do you mean so fucking what. im on.my.period. its the red sea down there. " I said now  walking into the house. Plopping my backpack down next to the door. He followed me in closing the door behind him. "but your vagina still works Tina" Ben said now sitting on my red couch. 

I turned to look at him to see if he was kidding. "are you serious right now?" i asked not really knowing what to say. Since when are guys okay with periods? 

"do I look like im joking?" he questioned now pointing to the tent in his pants. "why are you always so horny!" I said walking into my room. 

He came behind me shortly after leaving the door wide open.

"I just have needs...and its no different from your cum squirting everywhere" he said now looking at me with that look. I stood stunned. a bit embarrassed

"im fucking sorry i cant control my body-i tell you ive had enough and you just keep going! I will be screaming and you wont stop! what do you expect me to do!?" I screamed at him.

"i like when you scream..and you squirt everywhere" he said now taking steps towards me. "no." I said now turning my back to him. Crossing my arms I just needed to think. I was extremely moody and just wanted a good chocolate bar and to watch south park. But instead I have a horny frat boy hovering over me begging me for sex. He snaked his arms through my crossed arms and pulled me into him. He started kissing up and down my neck with his soft lips.  He rested on that one spot that always makes me melt and I now couldnt think straight. 

"no ben its going to get everywhere" i said breaking out of his embrace now rubbing my neck. I wasnt necessarily against it, but I knew how lazy I was and how I dont smell the same during my time of the month. I hadn't trimmed my hair down there for a while so its like fresh grown grass and not the short tapered cut I usually had.