before mimi

don't leave me

BEN POV

I knew something about her looked so familiar. i had no idea Tina knew her-let alone was friends with her. 

"you really think so...i mean i defiantly thought about it" T said now deep in thought.

"how old is the kid?"

"Caesar? hes 8. hes a great ki...." she trailed off and broke out of my embrace.

"oh my gosh....caesar is..i knew there was something about him"

"what do you mean?" i asked following her to the couch. 

"those freckles under his eyes are in the exact same places as Garys...and he has the exact same green eyes as him..wow he looks just like him" she said now sitting down. I followed suit watching her process all of this.

"shes the girl Gary described- light skinned, long dark hair and those eyes" i said thinking. 

"what if shes not her?" T asked now looking at me.

"hey-she is"

"but what if she isnt!"

"do you not want her to be?"

"no. i actually dont."

"why not? Gary deserves to know his kid!" I said getting a bit angry.

"because! Gary is now married! what good would it do with him finding her? and their kid? what would happen? what would happen to Gloria!? what would happen to Caeser!?"she said now getting defensive. 

"so you would up and leave with my kid too....?" i said now standing. I couldnt belive her right now-she thought it was ok.

"excuse me?"

"you would up and leave with my kid too!"

"okay okay one." she said now following me, "it would be OUR kid OURS. I have a pretty important part in baby making. and TWO who said I would do that?" she said now growing agitated.

"you basically did right there."
"what!?" she said throwing her hands up "what the hell is wrong with you right now?!"

"you think its okay for Gloria to up and leave nd not let gary see his kid?!"

"do you even know why she left!? its your crazy mothers fault! she tried to kill her!" she screamed at me.

"WHAT!?"

"YEA. YOUR CRAZY RACIST FUCKING MOTHER TRIED TO KILL HER AND GARYS UNBORN SON.! so shut the hell up and get out of my face about this." she said walking away from me. I stood there watching her walk away....thinking about what she just said. She couldn't be serious. I knew mom was a raging racist...but to attempt murder?

If tina is right....that means tina is great danger now, especially with us being engaged. I couldn't think straight. I felt limp and whinded, my heart started to pump faster. She cant get hurt again. the whole Allen thing was practically my fault-my moms ridiculous behavior...basically my fault and if anything ever happened to tina I would loose it. the room started to spin and I got all sweaty, before I knew it I saw tinas face in this worried state-and everything went black.

20 minutes later

This gust of wind was hitting my face as I looked up to see Tina with worried eyes. She was fanning my face rapidly.

"oh my gosh I got so worried!"  she said now choking me with her hug.

"what?" I asked a bit confused.

"you passed out! I don't know from what but one minute we were screaming at each other and the next thing I hear is this loud thump and you on the ground in a sweat! " she said now moving to my legs and lifting them in the air.