Silently Breaking My Heart

Chapter 1

Yesh this is the Silence Is Louder Than Words sequel! Whoop whoop! I guess the sudden spurt of comments on that inspired me into whipping this up! Let me know what ya'll think!

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I finished high school with a heavy heart. Trixie was gone and so was Erik in a way, I missed both of them. Not because we are all bffs or anything, just because bad or not they were part of my life. Erik's still here but it's different. All my romantic feelings for him are locked away; forbidden to ever escape. Now when I see him walking down the halls I don't pretend I'm busy to sneak a peek at his face. I regard him like the stranger he is, and it will always remain that way. Really the only thing that hasn't changed since I started speaking is my friendship with Rebecca. She know's everything about me now and we've grown closer than ever.

All my old high school enemies now treat me like were best friends. It was weird to be treated like a human but I didn't fall for their charm. I'm nice and I've long forgiven them but I still remember who my true friends are.

Now I've explored my options and decided on a college. I'm going to be a teacher for children with disabilities; that's what the college specializes in. It's perfect except for the fact that it's all the way in California. I'll miss everyone so much but it's time for me to move on... I just didn't know it would be so hard!

"Victoria!" I jumped and turned to look at the intruder.

"Hey Rebecca," I smiled, before returning my gaze to the ceiling. "how are you?"

"I'm good..." She hesitated to sit on the bed seeing as I was deep in thought. "You okay?"

"Yep." She raised her eyebrow skeptically. "No." I admitted rolling off the bed. Once I was on my feet I turned to face her. "I know that going away is the right thing..."

"But?" She prodded.

"But, it just feels so wrong!"

"Well I think I've got a solution." Now it was my turn to look skeptical. "A road trip, just you and me and a couple people!"

"Like who?" I wondered out loud.

"Like, like... Ben!" I smiled knowingly. "What? I don't like him!"

"I didn't say anything." I smiled. "Who else?"

"We could let Ben pick someone..." She mused, looking off to the side.

"I don't think Page would want me going away during the last few months that I'm home."

"Puh-lease!" She rolled her eyes. "Page has been so worried about you since the janitor came back! She would love for you to just let loose and have some fun!"

"I don't know..." Rebecca looked at me with a pleading face and I easily relented. "Okay."

"Awesome!" She chirped. "I'll tell Ben!"

I chuckled as she ran out excitedly, but that wasn't the only reason I was laughing; I was secretly giddy with happiness. God only knows how many long roads I've looked down, wondering where it would lead. I've never had the guts to find out... until now.

Stretching out on the bed I heard my phone ring. "Hello?" I answered without looking at the caller id.

"I still can't get used to that." Wyatt chuckled in his deep voice. "You talking I mean."

"Hey Wyatt, nice to hear from you." I smiled. "Is there something you need?"

"No. It's just that..." Suddenly he sounded very somber and I began to worry.

"What's wrong?"

"You don't need me anymore!" He finally said making me sigh with relief. "All your problems are gone and you have no use for a therapist!"

"That's true," I chuckled. "But I have tons of use for a friend. That's what you are after all; a friend. Didn't you know that?"

"No..." He said sheepishly. "I just thought you were using me for my knowledge of feelings and human emotion."

"Well that too!" I admitted with a laugh. "Dude I love you! You know your my brotha from another motha."

"Yeah I know." He chuckled. "Just like your my sista from another mista."

I cracked up then, clutching my sides. The laughter made my gunshot wound faintly ache but I ignored it.

Just then my foster brother Ben walked in, he was a bit older than me and had a crush on me in the past. Well, I hope its in the past... He smiled and politely waited for me to finish talking. "Hey, I got to go okay?"

"Alright fine! It's that brother of yours stealing you away isn't it?" He said in mock anger.

"Haha yeah." I chuckled. "Talk later?"

"Yeah love ya."

"You too." I said hanging up. "Hey Ben."

"Hey Vic, how goes it?" He asked making himself at home beside me on my bed.

"Pretty good." I answered shifting so I could see him properly. When I did I noticed a smirk on his stubbly face. "What's that look about?!"

"No reason.... I heard you said yes to the road trip." My nod let him continue with his mischievous grin rapidly spreading. "Well I decided who to bring with me."

"Oh no..." I whispered knowing in my gut there was only one guy that he would smile like that about... "Don't." I pleaded desperately.

"Too late I made up my mind," I felt myself deflate but I was still holding onto a strand of hope that Erik would say no. "and he already said yes!"

"No!" I whispered barely audibly as my strand broke and I felt myself falling fast. Suddenly I heard 'You' By The Pretty Reckless playing in my head and I landed into the sea of memories. All of them contained the guy that loved me, does he still? I know I do.

"You need to face him someday. Sooner than later." I heard Ben's voice but I saw Erik's smile, remembered his laugh, and felt when I broke our hearts that day in the hospital.

Oh Erik... Why'd you make me love you so much?