Gone Mental

Chapter 19 : Better

Chapter 19

A/N : Last chapter! ;)

A few days later...        

Riker POV

I was pretty sure I was doing better. No panic attacks since my first day home. I wasn't so scared anymore, and I think the counselor was helping.

But mom explained to me what the mental place thought happened to me. It was an environment change, so they said it messed up my brain a little. But once I saw I wasn't in danger, I'm going back to normal again. So that's good. Hopefully it will never be as bad as it was before.

And my counselor told my mom to take me to the doctor and get medicine for my anxiety. They had to test my pee and my heart and my blood. So it wasn't very fun, but now I have pills for if it gets really bad. And I haven't had to take any yet.

Ericka and I had our very first date tonight though. And I was nervous I was going to have a panic attack and ruin anything. This was like the final test. We were going to a restaurant, so it's kind of an environment change, but I don't know if it's going to affect me or not. And I hope it doesn't!

"Riker, you ready to go?" Ericka asked.

"Um... In a second!"

I was too nervous to put my contacts in. If I end up crying, it's not going to end well. I pushed my glasses onto my face, and looked in the mirror. I was wearing skinny jeans, converse, and a button up shirt. So I looked pretty good. But I wasn't feeling very good. My stomach felt like it was in knots.

I came out of the bathroom, and walked downstairs, meeting Ericka by the front door.

"Hey. You ready?"

"Mhmmm..."

"Ok. Let's go."

We started walking down the sidewalk. The restaurant was only about a 5 minute walk. And I had my bottle of pills in my back jeans pocket in case I really had to take one.

We got to the restaurant, and got seated. I felt so jittery.

We ordered our drinks and our food. I kept fidgeting with the straw in my water.

"Riker, are you alright?"

"Yeah, I'm great..."

"You sure?"

"Um... Yeah... Um... I think maybe I'm going to go to the bathroom though... With my water."

"Riker, wait."

I stayed there, and looked down.

"Riker, tell me what's wrong."

"I'm nervous... And I want to go take one of my pills so I don't ruin this."

"Riker, try not to take the pills, ok? Just try. If you really need to, I'll let you. But I just want to see if you can make it without them."

"Fine..."

"And it's ok that you're nervous. I mean... It's our first date. I'm a little nervous too."

"Really?"

"Yeah. We can be nervous together."

"Well... Alright... I'll try..."

Later...

Ericka POV

Riker seemed to get more and more comfortable as the date went on. He was doing completely fine.

Riker paid, and then we walked back to his house. I followed him into the living room. He sunk down into the couch. I sat next to him.

"Hey. How are you doing?" I asked.

"I'm tired. But I did it. I made it through, and I didn't ruin it."

"Yeah, you did great, Riker. I think you're finally a lot better. You're not letting it control your life anymore."

"Yeah."

I leaned over, and kissed him. He wrapped his arms around me, and pulled me onto his lap. He held me tightly.

"This would be more fun upstairs. We could cuddle in bed and watch a movie," Riker said, quietly.

"Alright, let's go."

He held my hand as we walked upstairs. He put on a movie on his laptop, and we cuddled together under his blankets. And I ended up falling asleep in his arms.

A few weeks later...

Riker POV

I wasn't seeing the counselor anymore. I didn't need to. I was finally better.

It's honestly been weeks since I've felt the urge to hide under the bed. I could finally go out and do things without worrying that I would totally freak out over nothing.

Things are amazing between me and Ericka too. We have movie nights all the time, and we've even watched a few scary ones. And I always get a little bit scared, but it's not the same feeling it was when I wanted to hide.

I was seriously all better. And back when I'd gotten arrested, I'd missed the end of my senior year. Ericka and I were taking online classes to finish high school. Everything was back to normal.

"Riker."

I'd been walking down the hallway, but I stopped in front of Ericka's room.

"Yes?"

"Come here."

I walked in, and wrapped my arms around Ericka.

"What?" I asked.

"I love you."

"I love you too."

I gently pressed my lips to hers.

Everything felt perfect.

The end.

A/N : It's finally over. I think with the other book Schizophrenic, I gave you guys the option of requesting a third book. I don't think I ever did the third book, but you guys had requested it, so eventually I'll get around to it. So, tell me if you guys want another book, basically about what happens to Ericka and Riker after all this. And... My other current book, Riker's Mistake is also ending today, but I have a new book starting called April Fools Prank Gone Wrong. It'll probably be up later today. Thanks for reading, and if you have any story requests, comment down below. ~Kylie