You must be crazy; l.h

Introduction

"Please baby, just open the door for me." The banging on the door got lighter and his voice got weaker. The cold tiles of the bathroom floor numbed my body and I felt my eyes getting heavier. "Maddie, baby. C'mon. It's me. Open up. Please." I could hear his soft sobs. I hate it when he cries. I open my eyes. The bathroom door right facing me. I hear Luke slide his back down the door. The empty bottle of pills sit in front of me and I push it away with all the energy I had left in me then close my dark eyes tight shut causing a tear to fall.

"Luke?" I mutter. It was clear that he was crying.

He sniffled and replied, "yeah? I'm here baby." Luke stood up and I hear my phone buzz from up on the sink. I look up and realise how dark it is in here. Silent, cold, lonely. The strong wind howling and the heavy rain bouncing off the small window above the toilet.

I let out a huge breath I didn't realise i was holding and turn my head back towards the door. "I love you." I whisper. Luke bangs on the door and I squint my eyes shut. He begins to breathe heavily and fidget with the lock, trying to get it open.

"No, no, no don't you dare do that. I know exactly what you're doing. Stop it! Stop Madison, fucking stop! Just open the door for me, please!" tears begin pouring and he bangs louder and louder on the door.

I know he'll be better off without me. I've done nothing but cause him pain since I walked into that fucking store last year. He has had so many chances to walk out on me and he never did. I should have just walked out on him a long time ago and it would have shown him how much better and easier his life would be without me but I can't. I cant leave him because I can't imagine life without him which is why i'm here laying on this cold bathroom floor in a pool of blood and tears. I can't imagine living without him so I won't. As much as I don't want to leave him, I have to It's best for him and it's too late now. the bottle is empty and so am I. My eyes droop shut and all I see is complete darkness. This is it...