save me | jungkook

12,

Areum hopped off the bed, stumbling a bit before steadying herself. She walked towards the nurse's desk and asked if she could leave since it was already near the school dismissal time.

     "Oh yeah. Before you go, I want to tell you something. I know that you're going through a lot right now, but you need to realize that what you're doing isn't healthy. One day, it's going to cause your death. Just like how it almost cost mine. I used to be obese. People would bully me, sometimes even threatening me with a knife that they'll cut off all the fat. I became anorexic after that," he frowned.

"But you look perfectly fine," Areum furrowed her eyebrows in confusion.

[A/N: HE'S A FINEAPPLE. ;)]

"Well, I look healthy on the outside. However, I am scarred by my actions forever in the inside. I will no longer be the same person after experiencing what had happened. So don't make the same choices like me. Be stronger. Don't let people push you around like you're nothing because you're special to at least one person. To me. To Jungkook. And to yourself. Only you can decide what you'll do now. Be wise," the nurse commiserated with Areum.

Areum was slightly taken aback with his story. She murmured that she'll consider his advice and politely said goodbye, leaving the room.

-

     She was back at her house, trudging into her room and up the stairs. Her mother and her sister, as usual, ignored her tired look. They didn't care about her — never.

She laid down on her bed, sighing and she curled up into a ball, facing the wall. After a few minutes of interminably staring at the wall, she thought to herself. Was he outside, standing there again? She sat up and looked out her window. Her eyes softened as Jungkook came into view. He was looking up at her and for a moment, Areum thought they made eye contact. She backed away from the window quickly, hugging her legs to her chest.

     Her heart beat quickly, but just as painful. She slowly looked out the window again, this time Jungkook wasn't facing her. She placed her hand on the window, wishing he could take her away from this world. She yearned for his touch, but in the end, he was always to far away for her grasp. She was ugly next to him. He was completely perfect.

So beautiful yet so dangerous.

Areum's arm dropped down and she got up from her bed. She walked into her bathroom, shutting the door behind her. She stared at herself on the mirror and grimaced. She stared at the small amount of fat that still hung on her cheeks, that still covered her whole body. Skinner, her mind hissed. The skinnier you are, the prettier you'll be. That's the only way you'll make Jungkook happy unlike your ugly self.

She stared at the mirror, now with more determination within.

–

ONE MONTH LATER:

     Everything remained the same. The two did not converse with each other, each knowing their own limits. They both had the desire to speak to each other, but they had nothing to talk about. Their grades were only slowly getting better, nothing too good. Areum's mother still complained about her grades and that she knew she should've called a tutor.

     However, her mother had said that it was a waste of money to spend something so big on a useless piece of trash.

     No matter how hard she tried, she couldn't get her grades higher. It seemed as though her loneliness had taken its toll on her. She wanted to be strong and independent, but she always found herself cowering in fear.

She looked up again, at the mirror. Her face was drenched with water as it dripped down her face.

She clenched her shaking hands around the cold, porcelain sink. Her legs shook as she tried to keep her posture still. Areum felt as though she could collapse at any moment and no one would notice her gone. Her head started pounding again like crazy.

All of her muscles and fat were gone; only bones protruding from her thin layers of skin. Her cheeks were sunken in and her hair was thinning as well as some strands falling off. A tear ran down her cheek. This was not what she wanted. She only wanted to be skinny and beautiful like everyone else.

Areum grabbed her phone and with shaking hands, she texted the number that the nurse gave her for emergencies.

areum17: save me
read 3:47 pm

unknown is writing...

unknown: i swear to god areum

unknown: don't do it

unknown: pls tell me you're reading this. i might not reach it in time since im somewhere else

unknown: but i'm coming
unread
 
     The phone buzzed on the porcelain sink, but she paid no attention to it. She didn't want to bother hearing all of those same words again, that someone actually cares. No one does. No one has and no one ever will.

     Areum shivered in disgust of herself. She turned on faucet of the bathroom tub and let it fill itself to the brim. She smiled gently, remembering that her mother and her sister wasn't at home. She remembered their scowls and their comments.

     She took off all her clothes and dipped her feet into the water. Water splashed over the edge and onto the floor. She sat down in the bathtub and grazed her fingers on the water's surface. Her eyes wandered around the room, gazing at all the objects. She noticed the razor at the edge of the bathtub.

Areum reached for it. Her hands shook with fear as she bit her lips.

She stopped for a moment, reconsidering her choices. But she snapped out of what she considered a dream and her fingers clasped onto the blade. She pressed it against her skin, feeling the sharp edge and its cold touch.

She pressed it harder this time, pulling it down against her skin vertically. She drew her deep red blood and pain shot through her. Her blood dropped into the bathtub filled with water. In a way, satisfaction had also rippled through her.

Deeper.

She made more vertical slits, blood pouring out like an endless faucet of water. The more she cut her arm, the more she felt her eyes closing. She dropped the blade onto the ground and let herself slump into the bathtub filled with bloodied water.

     "Areum, stay with me."

~

Sorry for not updating for a month. I'm so busy with essays, tests, and hw that I don't have much time to write. Hope you enjoy this chapter tho :)

Sorry if it made you feel uncomfortable with the cutting part. I'm not promoting cutting at all. Please don't cut yourselves.

Take care,
Flora Lee