It Shouldn't Be Me

Its Not A Secret Anymore

We finally made it to New Jersey and just being a few blocks away from the arena, you could hear the fans screaming. I woke up, not remembering falling asleep, next to Niall. He was playing with my hair and started to smile when he saw my eyes open." You know, you kinda talk in your sleep." He laughed a little.

"What did I say?!" I looked shocked but kinda embarrassed.

"You were saying,'Niall, Niall.' That's all." I laughed at him cause I know he was joking and teasing me.

"Haha! In your dreams Horan." I laughed jokingly.

"No, in your dreams Marie." He said back.

"We gotta go!" We heard Paul yell through out the bus. We got out of the bunk and went down the stairs, exciting the bus. I made sure to have my sunglasses and my SnapBack that said,'Coolness', on so the fans wouldn't see me face. As we walked through, I felt a warm hand intertwine my fingers. I knew it was Niall because lately, he's been really warm, which in my opinion is kinda weird, but I like it. Harry seemed to take a glance back seeing me hold Niall's hand and saw a smile on my face when my head was down. We finally made it through the crowd and back stage. I took my glasses of but I kept my hat on. Oh by the way, Zayn got me the hat for my Birthday, just in case your wondering. Anyway, when we went to the dressing room, Harry took my arm and slammed me against the corner of the room. His right arm was blocking my way out and his left arm above my head. He came closer and closer to me. I was kinda scared. The way he looked at me with his green eyes and his little dimple smirk. He got really close that our noses touched. He then went in and started to kiss me. This was wrong. This was all wrong. I couldn't pull away so I moved my head to the side." Why did you resist?" He asked almost evil sounding. Kinda like my dream of Niall.

"I know you don't like me Harry. Your trying to make Niall jealous and that's not-" He cut me off by kissing me again but I resisted." Harry stop! Your never like this! What happened to normal funny, immature Harry?!" I started to get angry." The minute I met you I really liked you. But now, you've changed. I don't think I can take it anymore. And the fact that your making Niall jealous, is really disappointing." I moved his arm and pushed him away from me. I walked over wear the boys were sitting and acted like nothing happened.

"Everything alright, love?" Liam asked concerned.

"Yeah, sure." I was angry. Nothing was alright. Everything was wrong. Everything was... Heartbreaking.