I quickly walked out of the principal's office and went to class. At lunch I sat with Taylor, Tommy, and Jake.
"What happened?!" Taylor practically yelled.
I guiltily smiled, "You know how I said the nurse sent me home yesterday?"
She instantly put two and two together and facepalmed, "Alexia Melissa Trippy!"
Just then Monica walked, "How's your ankle, Trippy?"
"Like you actually care." I rolled my eyes.
"I don't but I have too." she said.
"Why don't you just leave?" Tommy said.
Monica smirked, "I thought you were dating that Clark boy? Have to have Tommy stick up for you too?"
"Why are you such a jerk?" I said to her.
"It's my job." she said as she flipped her hair and Taylor mocked her every move making us all laugh.
"Wow, she's annoying." Jake said.
"Try being on the same team as her." I nudged his shoulder.
"No." Taylor started, "Don't get off the subject, why did you skip school yesterday?"
"I wanted to see Logan." I shrugged.
"What is going on with you?" she urged.
"Stop it Taylor. It's not your job to worry about me." I slammed my books shut, "I need to go get help with math."
I left the cafeteria and I swear there was steam coming out of my ears. I went to my locker and low and behold another note. I didn't want to deal with it so I just shoved it in the bottom of my bag. I started to sweat, I mean I was wearing a hoodie in late August in Florida. I was so frustrated with the world. As I was walking to my tutoring I saw my favorite English teacher walking down the hall, Mr. Cruz.
"Glad to see you stuck around for class today Lexi." he said.
I immediately blushed, "I'm sorry, Mr. Cruz."
"I was a teenager once too, I understand." he winked and started to walk away but turned around, "Aren't you warm?"
"I'm okay." I said.
"You're sweating." he pushed.
"I'm fine." I insisted.
"Okay, see you eighth period." he said.
"Bye Mr. Cruz." I turned towards the math room.
I took a sigh of relief. I could go back to a tshirt and a ton of bracelets but then my parents will question it. This is such an annoying habit to have and the worst part is, I have to hide it from everyone I love or I'm going to hurt them. I quickly wiped that all out of my mind and focused on school as much as I could. I waited in my car after school for Taylor. I didn't think she was going to come and by the look on her face she didn't want to she just had no other option. I drove us to gym to silence. Talk about awkward. Gym was as miserable as I expected it to be and by the time is was over my ankle was sore again. Taylor got a ride home with her mom. I felt so bad. I remembered the note and I finally had the nerve to read it.
"Want attention? Wear short sleeves tomorrow. Then see how much attention you get. Maybe they'll send you away for good. -xoxox"
I wanted to scream. How does Monica know? I don't get it. I was falling into that dark place again. It was so hard to climb out of it before I don't want to have to do it again. My whole way home I blasted the music and as soon as I pulled into the driveway I jumped out of the car and ran to the shower. After making a few fresh cuts I got out and got dressed to got a dinner with Logan's family. I wore a very modest short dress with a long sleeve black cardigan. I was very quiet the whole time. I felt awkward with Logan's grandparents there. When we got back to Logan's house he gave me a ride home.
"Are you okay, Lex?" he asked.
"Fine." I smiled.
He rested his hand on my knee, "Are you sure?"
"I promise." I was lying through my teeth.
"If you say so." we pulled into my driveway and he put his car in park and we kissed until his phone went off he looked at me and said, "It's the carrot."
I smiled and kissed him one last time"Goodnight."
He smirked, "Goodnight, I love you."
"I love you too." I got out of the car and went inside.
I went into my room and got into bed. The next day I didn't even go to lunch I didn't want to make Taylor feel awkward. I missed a quiz on the day I skipped and it being so early in the year I didn't want to lose those points so Mr. Cruz let me go to this room during his free period to make it up. When I handed him my test I was careless, it was wrist up and my sleeve started to slide towards me I immediately pulled back to hide the cuts that were about to show an switched hands.
"What's going on, Lexi?" Mr. Cruz was so confused.
"Nothing." I said and gathered my things from my desk, I could feel the tears form in my eyes.
He looked at me with concern, "You're wearing long sleeves again. It's 85 degrees you know?"
"I know." I smiled, "I went on a trip this summer and all of my summer clothes are still dirty."
"All of them?" he urged.
I sighed, "Don't worry about it Mr. Cruz. Thank you for letting me make up my test."
"Is it out of line for me to ask you to roll up your sleeves?" he looked at me catiously.
My heart skipped a beat and just then the bell rang, "Sorry, I can't be late." and I practically ran out the door.
I knew Mr. Cruz wasn't going to let this drop and I was so scared. This is a habbit there really is no way of hiding. As I was running from Mr. Cruz I ran into to Taylor she grabbed my arm and pulled me into the girls bathroom and hugged me. I just cried.
"Please tell me what's wrong." she said softly.
"I really can't." I said.
"I'm here for you." she paused, "We're sisters. I love you."
"I love you too but there's even some things sisters have to hide from each other."
"Is it Monica? I'll smack a hoe." she smiled.
We laughed and walked to class together. it was only sixth period, eighth period came along rather fast and there was a note waiting on my desk.
"See me after class. -Mr. C"
I had an immediate sigh of relief when it wasn't whoever it was giving me the notes in my locker. I actually haven't heard from that person all day. When the bell rang I ignored the note Mr. Cruz left me and ran out of the room. When I turned around I saw him standing outside of his room and he caught my eye. He was furious. I ignored it I was just excited the day was over. Then I realized it wasn't and I had gym but at least it was the last practice until Sunday. Taylor and I joked all the way to practice. That is exactly why that girl is my best friend. She make me smile any day. When I got home my grandparents and aunts and uncles were over. At first I was worried something happened to my dad but then I was relieved when I found out it was only Toby's birthday. I quickly took a shower and then joined the family. Everyone was swimming and I just used the excuse I didn't want to get chlorine in my freshly washed hair. When I woke up the next morning my cuts were scarred over enough to coat it with make-up and what I couldn't hide I put bracelets on. I thought this would satisfy my bully and Mr. Curz.
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Starting January 1st I'm going to start a journal type story where every day they'll be a journal entry of the persons life. It's not anyone famous or special just something different I came across that I wanted to try. if any of you would be interested in reading it let me know. -beautifulgoodbyexx
