Somebody's Kiss (TeacherxStudent) (GirlxGirl) (Lesbian) (SlowlyEditing)

Chapter 30

Natasha's POV

I want to build a world, a world where I could live freely. Where I could do anything I want without being afraid to be judge, a whole new world of pure gladness. It only exist in my imagination tho. As I stare her eyes, I could see a pure meaning of joy, a kind of joy that my heart has felt ever since I started to get close of her. How can someone so badass looks like innocent, someone looks so strong yet so fragile within.

Those blasting color of insanity, her eyes that tells thousands of emotions that I could almost reach yet she's not letting me to see. Why she have to forget me when I'm ready to accept her, why it has to be like this. I hate the timing. This chick who caught me off guard and drive me into insanity, for I ride the vehicle that I can't explain, and this vehicle is escorting me into the deeps of the unknown.

I lose myself in reality for I found myself drown in her stares, I can't take my eyes away, I couldn't think properly. My brain lose its function and left with no trail of sanity or way of thinking indeed filled of her image. Stop it, she'll get confused about me if I won't stop staring her like this, she will probably think I'm her weird teacher. There's no way I could look at her like this, Alexandra doesn't remember anything about me at all, not even a single strand of her brain recognize me. That reality blow me off so away from her, I must stay proper under her gaze.

"Uhm, Natasha. Is there any dirt in my face?" She began to asked.

The way she act was so different from the Alexandra that I knew, she's very odd. So kind and polite hence the Alexandra that I once knew was far different, easily annoyed, seems so serious and flirty at any ways. Maybe I'm not used of her new attitude that's why in my eyes I could tell she looks like she's acting up and hiding something not only from me but for everyone.

I blinked twice and look down for a bit before looking back at her, I had to gather my composure before she started to think something. "There's none." I just only can't stop staring you, that's it.

"O-okay." She replied weirdly with a sly smirk. Wait, I know that kind of move. I remember that smirk. I saw it once but I can't remember.

I have to think where did I last saw it, I tried to play my eyes and look sideways, thinking where I last seen it. That's it, in my apartment. The time where Alliyah unexpectedly visit me, I smiled to myself, she's still posses that childish behavior, she's still not far from the old Alexandra I knew.

I replied "Sorry, what was your question?"

I wave off from the query she's trying to ask me before. She gladly anwer "Well it seems you're close with my friends and family, I was wondering if we met outside school before the class had started?"

I left shocked of her question but manage to hold my actions, I don't know if I'm going to answer her or not at all, I could make up stories besides she don't remember anything at all but what if her friends tell her the truth and then she will ask me more questions that I don't know if I could give them answers. But if I tell her the truth she would feel uneasy being with me and she might not believe what I'm going to tell her.

It's so difficult, but if I want her to recover soon, I should tell her the things she need to know. I'm in between of the truth and telling different stories. I want to tell her the truth so bad but thinking about how would she react scares me. I don't know what to do.

I should let my mouth open and let it do its function, I should just let the words flow on its own. I want her to remember me, although it would be difficult to explain to her I have to take risk. I started to tell her the story of that great night "Well uh ---."

"There you two." I was interrupted by a sudden voice. It took seconds before Alexandra and I broke the flaming contact, taking our sight to the owner of the voice.