Somebody's Kiss (TeacherxStudent) (GirlxGirl) (Lesbian) (SlowlyEditing)

Chapter 36

Later days was no better, no progress made, aside of having Kate around all the time. Begging her to spend time with me, Kate and I went out most of the times, we eat lunch together, spend most of our time with each other, I surprised her a lot. She was so happy, each time that I'm with her, she couldn't make a single fake smile. Rumors were spreading at the campus about Kate and I being together, few people from the class saw us whenever we're out for a date. That skin digging look I received from Kendra every single time she laid her eyes on me, showing how disapprove she is of what I'm doing. Miles and I never really talk about the flow of this game, it is not really a game for me because I'm not playing with anyone, with Kate. I'm only showing her my affection and how much love I could give her, only if I'm in love with her.

The inner Alexandra is screaming each time, each seconds I heard something related to "HER", the incident happened last time was only remained to both of us. No more eye contacts nor a glimpse, it is like I'm a walking ghost in her class, I don't exist to her, not anymore. I want to embrace her and tell her how sorry I am, that I never meant what I said. I want to tell her that she's the only one who owns my everything, but that's hilarious to do. How can I be so stupid? How did I put myself here? What do I really want? What am I trying to prove?

"Are you up for later?" Kate's voice invade my thoughts.

When my eyes met hers, I couldn't stop but wonder, I loved her before, why I couldn't love her in that way again? How innocent she is of what's happening around, and there were Miles and I secretly plotted everything, with a single person who observantly knew it all, Kendra. How can Miles face Kate without having second thoughts? How can Kendra be close to her everyday without having a doubt to spill her everything she knew? If I'm really doing nothing wrong, then why do I feel this way? Guilty. Apologetic. Ashamed.

"Of course, it's what I love. What, are you changing your mind?" I teased her, nudging her shoulders.

"No, I'm always up for your challenges, Alex." she winked. "So are you gonna tell me why Miss Anderson never came back again for your make up class?"

I roll my eyes discreetly, I have no guts anymore to face her, and speaking of, we're walking down the aisle towards her class. I've been dying to see her, but now I feel like I'm being escorted to my execution, I mean it's a complete torture not being able to be notice by her, in which she's doing for the past few weeks.

I smiled fakingly but of course Kate won't notice it's a sham. She look at me hoping I'll give her a quite sensible answer. "I'm a troubled student, Darling. Maybe she find it hard for me to do things, and quit."

She pursed her lips, a perfect gesture of her doubt. I don't see the reason why Kate have to do things for Natasha, isn't she's supposed to be with my side, because she's getting what she needs from me. Clearly, she's still into me and in love with me, but her actions sometimes says otherwise. "I don't think so. Perhaps, you had an argument with her, just like as before." and she began walking again.

I followed her confusely "What do you mean?"

"It just, it brings back memories. It's a typical you and Natasha thing. One moment you two were good, the next time you were arguing over something." she inform shortly.

"I don't follow." I chided, none of the things seems clear to me. Or I am too blinded of my game plan, that I was trying to avoid stuffs like this.

"It just means that you're being natural around her. Old grumpy, short tempered, impulsive Alex. That's you, and not this." she's still wasn't looking at my direction, more of avoiding eye contacts. "It's like you're two different person, Alex. Sometimes it confuses me, which one are you? Or should I say..." she turn to face me, and honestly I've never seen Kate so doubtful before, it's scary because I am being skinned in her glare, the guilt is driving me crazy, "Who really are you?"