And I'm So High On Misery [BoyxBoy] Sequel to TDIMIY

Chapter 3

 Jeydon's POV

 I pulled away. I didn't like Corbin's kisses. It felt like he was eating my face. I liked Zane's kisses better. They felt like soft and tasted like peppermint. Corbin's lips were dry as the Sahara Dessert. I'm going to need to buy him some chapstick.

 "Good boy. Now sit down and laugh like you're having a good time." Corbin said and I did what he told me to do. Corbin threw an arm over my shoulder and kissed my cheek. I feel disgusted. I could've been with Zane. If only I had let him stay that day. None of this would've happened. It's all my fault. I keep telling myself this everyday. I sometimes wish I could go back to that day and change everything. But i cannot do that. I just have to move on and try to deal with the present.

 I looked at Zane from the corner of my eye. I don't understand why he broke up with Karen. She's perfect for him. As for me? I'm just that mistake. I couldn't give him what he wanted. I just never knew he was bi. Well, he did go out with Audrey before.

 I need to stop thinking about Zane. It's over between us. I made that decision. I made it clear that I don't want anything to do with him. I only said it so he wouldn't be hurting. Now I'm the one who's hurting. I just have to watch him move on.

 "What are you looking at?" Corbin asked and I whipped my head towards my fake boyfriend.

 "Nothing. I was just, observing." I say with a sigh. I just Zane so much.

 "Stop thinking about Zane. You're with me now. I actually came out for you."

 "He didn't want to come out because of the stuff he'll get from other people. The schools bad boy is a homosexual. Do you know how that's going to look on him?"

 "I have a reputation too. That didn't stop me from coming out to the world. I only did it for you." he said kissing my forehead and Zane stomped down the bleachers and walked out of the gym. I hope he isn't mad. I shouldn't worry. It's not my business to worry. Zane's a big boy. He can take care of himself.

 Maybe I should go after him. See what's wrong. No! I have a boyfriend now. I need to stay faithful. But I just want to feel his touch against my skin. "Why are you touching yourself?"  Corbin asked.

 "I'm just touching my cheek. It's so soft."

 "I know you're thinking about Zane."

 "What? I can't think about him?"

 "No. I don't want you to think about anyone but me."

 "I don't want to think about you." I say scrunching up my nose.

 The bell rang and I sighed. I have next block with Zane. Oh my gosh. I have next block with Zane! This is awesome. i get to stare at his beautiful green eyes. "I'll see you later."

 "What? You're not going to walk me to class?"

 "Nope."

"Well then." I said and he walked off. I got up off the bleachers and kept my head down. It's time to shut people out now.

 I stared walking towards the corridors. I felt a hand tap on my shoulder. I turned around. Phoebe was standing there. She grabbed my arm and pulled me outside. "Tell me the real reason why Zane say you butt naked in your room that night."

 My heart was beating through my chest. "There is no reason."

 "I know something is up. You'd never do anything to hurt Zane."

 "You don't know anything!" I say but what she said was the truth. I wish I could tell her. I really do. I just can't tell anyone. I feel like Corbin will find out and murder me. I'm such punk.