After that encounter with Sigrid, nagbago na si Ryan. Minsan nagka-cut classes siya, nagdadahilan na masama ang pakiramdam. Hindi siya umaattend ng Jazz Classes niya, music class, electives at pati narin sa Hip Hop group niya ay umiiwas siya. He got low grades sa mga ito, at dahil wala na siyang panahon kay Jessie, ito rin ang nagging dahilan ng break up nila.
During the break, Sigrid confronted Ryan.
"You know what, you're a pathetic brat, sinaktan mo na nga ang bestfriend ko, sinasaktan mo pa ang sarili mo, alam mo, pag di ka nag-focus sa studies mo, baka makick out ka na sa school. Ano bang nangyayari sayo, ha Rye?"
"I'm falling for you Sigrid, noon, ok lang sa atin ang setup natin. Pero as time goes by, hindi ko na maintindihan ang feelings ko, ewan na. Bakit ikaw din naman ah, sinaktan mo rin si Jessie."
"I know, kaya nga sising sisi ako sa mga nangyari, alam na ni Jessie ang tungkol sa atin, bagaman masakit para sa kanya, she understands naman, besides she's dating Nolan and she told me she's happier with him now."
"Sino si Nolan?"
"Nolan was a friend of my cousin, he's a junior sa Philippine Science High School, bakit, nagseselos ka, dahil pinagpalit ka sa mas matino at may class?"
"Hindi naman, I'm just happy for her. Pero, bat mo ba nililihis ang kwento Sigrid? Mahal mo ba ako? Kasi ako, sigurado na talaga sa nararamdaman ko, I love you!"
Hindi na nakasagot pa si Sigrid dahil hinalikan na siya ni Ryan. It was passionate, full of love. Ibang iba sa unang encounter nila. Ngayon nasasalamin mo na talaga na may pagmamahal sa kanilang dalawa. That kissing led into a hot lovemaking. It wasn't right for teens to do such, they are both turning 17, pero aktibo na sila sa ganoong gawain. They are really not a good example, pero anong magagawa nila, they are so attached to each other, mga bata na hindi pa nagmamature, yung hindi pa alam ang mga consequences na magaganap. What they only knew is to love, and cherish the moment.
Since that summer vacation, naging mag-on sina Sigrid at Ryan. Every week sila kung lumabas, mag-date, magpunta sa beach, to make love, as if they were newly married couple. Sigrid grew up in New York, kaya ganun siya, liberated ika nga. Ryan is quite a rebel naman kaya maagang na-inclined into pre-marital sex. Si Jessie sana yung magpapabago sa kanya, kaya lang Sigrid entered in the scene. Buti nalang at hindi sila into drugs, only love & lust.
One time, habang nasa mall sila, bigla nalang nanghina si Sigrid, gasping for air at nawalan ng malay. Ryan brought her to the hospital, worried siya that time, kaya he phoned Sigrid's parents.
Pansin rin ni Ryan na palagiang nahihimatay si Sigrid when they were in PJAS. During rehearsals, during classes, Ryan asked Sigrid one time but she only replied that extreme fatigue lang daw iyun, at mas lumelevel-up daw yung mga routines sa ballet class niya at nahihirapan siya.
During their monthsary, mas lalong pumayat si Sigrid and she looks even pale, she has mood swings na ikina-kagalit naman ni Ryan. Then medyo nagkakalabuan na sila, Sigrid is pushing Ryan away, sa di malamang dahilan. Until one day, when they meet sa isang mall, Sigrid ended it up.
"Bakit? I need your explanation? I'm listening."
"I don't need to explain Ryan, it's just that it's all gone, the feelings, the love, the magic. Palagi na tayong nag-aaway Rye, at sawa na ako sa mga bangayan natin, what we need is a proper closure, let's end this."
"Ganun nalang yun, ganun nalang? Ang dami nating pinagdaanan, ang dami nating pinagsamahan, through thick and thin, through sadness and happiness kasama kita, tapos sasabihin mo let's end this. Ganun lang ba ang relationship natin, sex lang? You know, immature ako, pero mas immature ka. Ang gulo mo."
"You heard what I said, my love for you vanished, the magic isn't there anymore, I think this is goodbye Rye. Thank you for loving me."
Sigrid walked out crying, Ryan was there, confused, stoned. Hindi siya makapaniwalang wala na sila, that their relationship ended for just a month, at yung babae pa ang nakipag-hiwalay.
Ryan was grief stricken that time, pumunta siya sa bar para maglasing at makalimot. He texted his buddies na samahan siya para uminom. Yung kabarkada niyang si Terrence ay anak ng bar owner kaya kahit 17 palang sila, nakapasok sila dito. Dinamayan siya ng mga kaibigan niyang sina Enzo, Terrence at Butch, at inilabas niya lahat ang kanyang sama ng loob.
Until he was so drunk, pati yung mga kaibigan niya bagsak na rin. A guy approached him, and asked kung saan siya nakatira, Ryan replied
"Your place"
The guy was Drake Samartino, he was also a student sa PJAS, a member of the Gymnastic Guild. Cousin siya ni Terrence at co-owner ang Papa niya sa Bar na kung nasaan sila. He's a gay, at crush niya si Ryan, he took advantage of him, at inuwi niya ito sa bahay nila sa Makati.
The day after, nagising nalang si Ryan sa kama ni Drake, wala siyang pang itaas dahil nasukaan niya ito kagabi, at naka-boxers lang siya. That time, mabigat yung nararamdaman niya, and his head was throbbing. May nakita siyang polo shirt at pantalon sa may closet at isinuot niya ito at saka umalis.
Gulong gulo ang isip niya noon, hindi niya alam ang mga nangyari kagabi, maliban lang sa heartbroken siya at hiwalay na sila ni Sigrid.
BINABASA MO ANG
Where Angels Fall....
Short StoryWe have our own choice, we have our own destiny. We draft our own destiny, we write our own life story. We commit mistakes, but as we fall, we learn and stand strong.
