FORBIDDEN PASSION(HAYLOR)

chapter four

I wake up early than I thought not like am going anywhere cause it's a Sunday, even though I have to go back to school today which is later on in the day.

I still can't believe I kissed him. Where did that all come from but I wish I stayed back and waited to see how he felt about it. If he didn't like it I will swear it was alcohol that caused my action.

But I think he likes me. He said all those nice things that no one has said about me apart from my Dad. I only did that to find comfort in him and the minute that my lips melted on his,I felt that feeling.

Why am I thinking of this and making a big deal out of it when it was only a drunk damn kiss. Am sure he was drunk too,that's why he said all those things.

But what if it happens I run into him again,I don't know at the cemetery or anywhere else or at the lounge but am going back to school and am sure that won't happen. I hope I don't get to see him again.

But another part of me is excited to see him and want to know how he felt.

Is everyone this thoughtful about their first kiss. Growing up I never thought this shit mattered and I don't get why it should.

Maybe I should tell Selena about it. About the kiss but what will she think of me,if I tell her it's with someone way older than me.

I finally get out of bed to freshen up. I get dressed and sit down on my study. Am not sure what to do cause I don't have any school work.

I decide to look him up.
I type in
"John Mayer".
40 years,widower.
Two kids
Owner of two corporation companies in new York and Miami.

This explains why I thought I knew him. His so fucking rich and important. How is it possible he even noticed a twenty year old college kid like me.

I knew him being into me was way too good to be true. I close my laptop and head out. Am not sure where to but I don't want to run into my Mom. I know she kept quiet after last nights confrontation. But me and my Mom are like two competitive companies. Any of us gets the chance to fire back on the other. That's the only bond we share.

If one was to choose a Mom to birth them,I wouldn't have chosen her at all.

I walk into the kitchen and pour some cereal in a cup. Yes am weird and i eat cereal out of a cup.

I hear my Mom talking in the living room not sure with whom cause the helper is standing next to me.

I just hope it's not Justin's father,cause am not sure if I will be able to hold my mouth and not put him in his damn place.

" Taylor, sweety someone wants to see you,"

I spit the cereal out of my mouth. What the hell! My Mom is never nice to me unless of course she wants to keep up appearances and she only does that with someone who is worth her fake acting.

I feel sorry for who ever it is.

I clean after myself and walk into the living room. I find my Mom is being all flirty and nice with Mr Mayer.

But what is he doing here and how did he know were I stay.

"Oh here's my favourite daughter of all time," she says as she hugs me.

Am not sure how to put up with this good side of her but neither do I want to come out rude in front of Mr Mayer.

Why should I even care what he thinks about me. Alright after last night I do care what he thinks about me.

"Alright Mom can you please excuse us," I tell her as I break free from her hug.

She finally leaves,though am sure she is probably somewhere close by eavesdropping on us.

If he talks about the kiss,she will prove me wrong and rub it in my face about being a slut and all.

"What are you doing here, I ask him and how did you know exactly where to find me?" I had someone locate you,I hope you don't mind and it's not a problem to you.

No it's not but you're the last person I expected to knock on my doorstep or better yet meet my Mom.

"Who I think is way to kind than you said her to be,she doesn't seem that bad," he responds.

It's only cause she likes you and I wouldn't be surprised if you liked her too,I mean my Mom is way too appearing and beautiful.

"So are you,you are way too beautiful and appearing than her and what if I like you instead of her?" He asks me as he moves close to me.

"You do,I mean you like me,I never expected you to like me," I tell him hesitantly.

Why is that Taylor? If it's about my age,I will understand. I mean you can have all the nice guys your age. I don't think you would settle for me at all.

"No it's not that Mr Mayer. But why are you here? If it's about the kiss am really sorry. I don't know what got over me that I ended up kissing you,maybe I had way too much to drink."

It's fine Taylor, you don't have to explain yourself cause I enjoyed it. You actually made me feel young and I couldn't stop thinking about the kiss or you the whole night. But tell me did you regret kissing me? Did you feel anything at all?

"I don't know,all this is new to me,am not even sure what I felt when I kissed you cause you were my first kiss but don't think I only did that just so I can kiss someone. I kissed you cause I wanted to but don't ask me why cause I don't know why I did."

"Am sorry a grown ass man ended up stealing your first kiss but I can kiss it back he says as he moves even more close than before. Which makes me nervous.

"Not here you can't, oh I mean no,I think you should leave now."

Am sorry if am making you uncomfortable or nervous but you left your phone last night and no I didn't go through it but I think you should put a lock screen on it cause I was so tempted,I almost went through your pictures, just so I can steal one of them for myself.

I can't help but smile.

Don't smile just yet cause you owe me a picture,he says as he hands me my phone.

I hope I get to see you soon,he says. Then he walks out