FORBIDDEN PASSION(HAYLOR)

chapter five

"You didn't tell me you know the widower Mayer, how come you never told me at all."

I never did cause like anything I never tell you,now leave me alone.

"Not so easily I won't, tell me what did you do and why was he looking for you?" It's none of your damn business, can't you put a blind eye to this like you always do with whatever happens in my life.

"You know what his good looking and rich, whatever it is you are doing keep on doing it that way he can come here more often."

"I won't let you sell me like you did with my sister."

After I say that,I notice my Mom starts to laugh.

"Oh man Taylor, you have done it this time. You have totally gone crazy,what makes you think Mr Mayer would have his eyes on you when he can have me. It's like you never get it,when I say you will end up all alone. Miserable and lonely with your cold hurtful heart."

"He thinks am beautiful," I tell her. Am not even sure why I fired back when I always walk away.

He thinks you're beautiful? Am sure he only said that to get into your pants. Just look at yourself and look at me. I don't know why I proceeded to giving birth to you but I only did to shut your father up,that's why you're miserable just like him.

Am not sure what to say but I start to cry instead.

I quickly run out of the house. Am not sure were to go cause I don't have friends but this is the only time I wish I did.

I get into a taxi and ask them to drop me at the cemetery.

I can't help but cry some more when I reach my Dad's grave.

I lay there and cry.

Am not sure how but I fall asleep there.

I feel someone's hands on me. Am not sure if I should scream or what.

"Am sorry if I frightened you," he says. It's me John. But your weirdness is getting way out of hand. I have been watching you sleep for the past four hours. I know you love your Dad but this is way too much.

"I can take you home if you want?" He asks me since I haven't responded to him from the time he woke me up.

"Oh no I don't want to go home but you can stay with me if you want but I would love it if you did."

I notice his smiling but then he starts to laugh.

"When you mean stay with you,I hope you don't mean here at the cemetery?" Of course not,we can go out I don't know like we did yesterday, I know I was half drunk when we met at the lounge but am funny to hang with,I tell him.

"I know you're Taylor,even just starring at you while you sleep for four hours has been fun. Everything about you is fun."

"No it's not,trust me that's why I don't have friends or anyone to talk to that's why I had to come here."

Oh that makes me sad,Tay can I call you Tay,I thought am your friend but since you were not aware,am letting you know now. You like it or not,am your friend.

I can't help but smile.

"While you won't stick around for too long,I tell him as I stand up to face him.

"What makes you say that?" Cause I can't keep friends neither do I know what it's like to have friends.

"Well that's why am here,I will teach you how to make and keep friends,in return you will teach me how to be weird."

Deal.

Okay deal,he tells me.

Now we can go have a few drinks then I will take you home cause am sure you have class tomorrow it being a Monday.

I do but I don't want to go home at least not today.

Why not?

I argued with my Mom, after you left.

I hope it's not cause of me? No it's not she's just bitter that's it. I tell him as we head to the car.

After having a few drinks at the lounge,we head to the hotel.

"Are you sure you're okay with us sharing the same room?" Yes I am unless you're scared of the press.

"Mr Mayer with a 20year old"

"Are you not scared what people will think about you being with me?" I ask him. No I don't care Tay, cause am with you and not them unless of course you care about what they will think.

No I wouldn't care at all. My Dad always told me to follow my heart but I never do. Cause he did and he ended up losing his life out of it.

"So you never follow your heart like never?" No I never do cause each time I try,I let my head take over but last night it was my heart,I tell him.

And how did it feel using your heart? It felt weird,I felt something move in my tummy as well as shivers and I felt strange in my own body cause I lost all control.

"And isn't that worth thinking with your heart? I don't know.

Oh well, okay,he says.

Can I ask you something, I ask him?

Sure.

How did you deal with your wife's death? It did hurt me like I couldn't believe it but I needed to be strong for my daughters. Oh sorry I have two daughters.

I just smile not wanting to interrupt him.

"My youngest was brave though I expected her to have it bad instead my eldest did,she even got mental illness out of it but she's getting better now."

"Am sorry about that but am guessing your daughters mean everything to you?" Yes they are but tell you what,you're starting to mean a lot to me.

"How so?" I ask looking surprised and I can tell he notices.

I don't know but I think you're amazing and a challenge. Which I really like and when you kissed me last time. I felt so many things which I would want to feel everyday, with you of course, he says sounding so sincere.

"Why are you saying all this Mr Mayer?" Please don't call me that,call me John, if you do Taylor it will make me so happy.

I don't know it just feels strange calling you that.

Please Taylor.

I don't know all this feels weird,what if my Mom was right and I hate to actually think she was.

John,okay John what exactly do you want from me?

Are you sure,you really want to know what I want from you Tay? Yes please tell me,I say.

"I want you to marry me and learn to love me in the process of us staying together."

Ain't you worried about your reputation and family?

So you can marry me but the only problem is what other people think? He asks looking excited.

Not only that,am still at school plus your kids what will they feel about you marrying someone, who's...

I pause.

"Who's what,twice my age?" He asks.

I don't know I will have to process all this,I tell him.

Alright dear take all your time but my offer will stand whenever and don't worry,I will not force you into doing anything when we get married until you're ready.

Alright goodnight,I tell him, then I leave to go to the bedroom and sleep.