The Star In Our Hands(lesbian story)[#Wattys2016]

Chapter 17

After finishing our breakfast, Viv said that she had to leave or else her parents would tell her off. I was feeling the joy spreading throughout my entire body because of her. She was special to me.

That happiness was interrupted by an unexpected call. I froze and I was left with my mouth open, while my heart was trying not to explode. It was Angel. I had completely forgotten about the fact that I left her with no explanations or clarifications. After watching the phone ringing for a while I decided to answer the call.

"Hey." I said, trying to sound as calm as I could.

All I heard as an answer was a cough.

"How come that you are calling me after what I did?" I broke the silence.

I got no answer to my question. We ended up sitting in silence for about five minutes -which actually felt like ages - when she decided to speak up.

"I'm sorry." She murmured.

At that moment I felt my heart breaking in a million pieces and I started forgetting every hateful feeling I had for her. Even though it was all her fault, my body started fulfilling with guilt.

"I know what you might be feeling right now and how much you hate me, but please...could you give me a second chance?I can guarantee you won't regret it." She said with an apologetic tone in her voice.

I could tell she had regretted. I could also tell that she had feelings for me, something that was giving me endless butterflies. Nevertheless, it was too late for her as I had Viv, who would never ever hurt me, who loved me more than herself and I loved her back. Angel was toxic for me, she was destroying me slowly and painfully. I wouldn't be able to deal with this situation, no matter how much I loved her, no matter how she was able to give me those amazing and indescribable feelings every time I was around her.

"No." I burst those two letters out.

At that moment I heard a small gasp from the other line and then she hung up. She had obviously started crying and I wanted to call her again but I was determined to stay strong and mainly, away from her. I tucked my head under the blankets and had an emotional breakdown.

Some hours later I decided to get out of my bed in order to do my homework but it was worthless as I wouldn't manage to concentrate no matter how hard I tried.

The next morning I had a terrible headache and my eyes were as puffy as my pillow. However, I had to go to school not only because I had to attend the lessons but also because I needed to see Viv...and Angel. When I arrived at school and parked my car, I realised that Angel's car wasn't there. At that moment, Viv jumped on my back and started giggling after my scream of panic.

"Hey you bitch!" She shouted and gave me a peck on the cheek.

"Hey." I murmured, making obvious how down I was feeling.

"You okay?" She repositioned herself on the ground and looked at me worried.

"Well, let's go inside and I'll explain everything to you." I answered and started walking.

When we got in the class we found no one, so we stayed in and it was time for me to describe what happened with no disturbance.

I sat on the desk and Viv sat on the chair so as to be able to hug my legs.

"Um well... before I start...please promise me that whatever I say you won't get mad at me." I pleaded hesitanly.

She nodded looking curious about what I was about to add after my short prologue.

Firstly, I mentioned the phone call and all of the things that were said between us. However, the hard part was confessing that I still had some feelings for her.

I took her hand in mine and said "You know...I love you so much..."

"I love you too." She interrupted and I continued.

"But...I don't know why Angel has such an effect on me.Everytime I see her I forget that the world exists, I feel like it's only me and her in the entire universe, like we are the only stars which are meant to combine their light in order to create more and more stars or planets. Even if I am angry with her I can't keep a straight face when she tries to draw my attention or apologise to me. She softens my soul and I love the way I behave when I'm around her. She makes me a better person and this is an invaluable gift you can get from someone. I know she is harmful for me but..."

"Then why did you say no?" I heard a voice from the back. When I turned my head around to see who it was our eyes locked. Angel was standing there, she had pain drawn all over her face and tears were dropping down from her eyes.

Some seconds later I turned to face Viv. She was crying either and she looked lost in her thoughts, or maybe just too shocked. At that moment I started hating myself. What had I done? They were both suffering because of me and I had caused all this. During my thoughts, I felt my vision becoming black and I lost consciousness.

Soooo, wow, well it's been a long time, I know I know , don't shout at me :( I really put so much effort to finally finish this chapter as my imagination wouldn't flow in any way, no matter for how long I was thinking of how the plot would become more interesting. I have no idea about what's wrong with me omg... anywayy, let me know in the comments what you think of the story so far and if any of you writing geniuses out there are willing to help me with the plot a little big, don't be afraid to text me in my inbox, I don't bite xx