Chapter 5

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I looked at her with an intimidating look and started running to nowhere and crying.

She was running after me,I have to admit that she was pretty fast cause in a few seconds she stopped me by grabbing me from my t-shirt.I started crying more and feeling bad,not for my self but for her.It was unfair for Viv to be in love with someone that would never feel the same way about her.

She turned me around so I was facing her.She was crying too but not as much as I was.Its not because she wasn't as sad as I was,it was because she was the strongest person I had ever met.And this was the first time I saw her crying.

"I'm sorry..." she tried to say but her voice came out very faded.

I pulled her for a hug instead.I could never ever let her cry and be sad for whatever reason.I had to protect her like she protected me.

"Don't be,I still think the same about you." I whispered in her ear.

At that moment she broke and started crying more,all of her weight was on me now so I dragged her to a tree and placed her down gently,sitting next to her.

I didn't say a word during the 10 minutes it took her to stop crying.I wanted her to get the pain out without any disturbance.

When she stopped crying,I took her hand and leaded us to the grass area.I let her there and run to the car in order to get two blankets so we could sit and watch the stars.I checked the clock out and it was half past nine which meant that we had half an hour to watch the stars.

I ran back to her, placed the blankets and sat on one of them.

"Sit next to me silly."I urged her.

She did as I told her and said nothing at all.

"Well,I promised I'd never ruin our friendship whatever happens right?I'm keeping my promise!"I smiled at the dead-like body next to me.

After cleaning her throat she said "Man...I'm a failure."

"No you're not,you're the best friend I could ever have,I wouldn't wish for anything better."

"Yes,but I'm in love with my best friend."

"So what?Not really a problem if I have to say so myself."

"So is everything going to be the same?"

"Yep,why not?" I raised my hands.

She said nothing and looked at the sky.

"Look,this red one is Mars!" I pointed.

"No shit Sherlock!" she laughed.

"That's my girl!"

"Well I'll start flirting with Angel more."

"To your knowledge,she called me a while ago and told me to call her when I get home cause she wants to tell me something."

"I'll be face timing with you so I can hear what she says"

"I'll just call you to let you know what she said,simple as this!"

"Deal." she said and stood up.

I stood up as well cause we really had to get back home as it was getting late and I had a time limit.

The drive home was silent but as she was sitting my eye caught something weird on her arm.I stopped the car and parked on the side of the road.She looked at me curiously.

"Show me your arm." I said as gently as I could but it mostly ended up sounding like an order.

She just stood still looking outside of the window.I took her arm to see deep scratches on her wrist.I felt like my world corrupted in a second.I poked her.

"Look at me Viv." I said.
"Look at me!I said look at me!!" I shouted this time desperately.

She turned her head slowly and tears were dropping from her eyes for once again.

I grabbed her from the shoulders and started shouting and shaking her."Why did you do that to yourself?Do you want to die?Is all this for me?FOR ME?And if you loved me you wouldn't want me to die right?Cause if you die,I die,I can't lose you Viv,do you hear me??"

I was out of control with what she had done to her self,I was nothing without her and I could never imagine a world without Viv Hansen.She was looking at me apatheticly all this time but the tears were still running down her soft skin.

"Have you finished your show?" she said in the end.

I gave a hard slap on the horn button and the car's alarm started making a loud and annoying noise.I started the engine so it stopped.

I had never felt so angry in my life.I just took her arm and looked at the scars after sighing multiple times.

"You're sleeping in my house today,we have some things to talk about."I said in an angry tone.

"Okay." was all she said for the rest of the drive.We arrived at my house at ten thirty and after Viv called her parents to let them know,we headed upstairs.

"You need to sleep straight away,it's late and you have school tomorrow!" my mum shouted from downstairs.

I sat on my bed and so did Viv.It was time for some clarifications.

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