Diamond (On Hold)

Chapter Nine

Being sick in bed and the sun shining bright outside suck. Only because the sun rarely shines on the beautiful city of London. And whenever it does, I intend to enjoy it as much as I can.

What adds up to my grumpy mood is last night's horrible events. I shouldn’t have gone in the first place. But I wanted to be professional and not mix my personal life with my work one. Which obviously I have failed at doing.

Nathan's words were stuck in my head like a crappy song you heard on the radio early in the morning and it just refuses to leave you at peace. That, and countless questions bugging my mind like an annoying fly that refuses to go away.

'Morning Pumpkin, how are you today?' My father told me as soon as he entered my room.

'Morning Dad, I feel so sick.' I told him with a puppy face in attempt to make him spend the day with me rather than going to his work. It sure has been a long time since I have spent some quality time with him and I have sure missed it.

'Isn't that horrible? I'll make you your mother's special soup and make some calls for someone to replace me at work today. Daddy's girl needs some pampering.'

Success!

'She sure does.' I said while sniffing to complete the act.

He then went to prepare the soup and make his phone calls and I was left again with my occupied mind.

What should I do?

I can’t keep this act forever I can't.

He'll figure it out soon.

But then what will happen?

'Is something on your mind Bells?'

'Don't worry Dad, it’s nothing important.' I told him while faking a smile.

'Are you sure? You know your old man can help you through anything.' He said while smirking.

'Oh I am positive of that.' I told him while trying harder to suppress a smile for him not to worry.

It has always been hard for my Dad. He was raising two kids all by himself and especially I gave him a hard time with my frequent cries of needing my mommy back, in addition to dealing with the loss of the love of his life. I just have no idea how he did it. He's by all means my hero.

'Morning sissy, looks like you're staying with your unemployed brother today.' Julian entered my room with his usual morning look and nodded his head at me.

'Wait, you're unemployed?' How on earth didn't I know that? Yes I have been occupied lately with work but not to the extent that I didn't even know that my brother lost his job.

'Yeah, I got bored out of my mind in that office and that old lady scared me.'

'That's really tough Julian! Seriously? You give up your job for that?'

'Hey I am currently looking for another one. Plus who wouldn't hire me? Look at me!' He said while gesturing towards his body.

I rolled my eyes at him and Dad saved me from his silliness with the odor of the heavenly soup he made me.

'Julian, go bug someone else. My girl is sick and she needs rest.'

'Sick, she's healthier than you and I combined! I bet she's only pretending to be sick to run from work today. Or better yet, run from a certain person whom she sees at work.' He says with an overly dramatic act and I glare at him. I didn’t want to discuss this right now and maybe ever.

'Bells, you and Amelia fighting again?' He said with his face full of concern.

'No Dad we're perfectly fine. Julian's just blabbering nonsense.'

Amelia and I have had our history, that I can’t deny. At first when we started working together, it wasn't really easy for either of us. We thought seeing each other daily would be all fun and games but it turned out to be the complete opposite. We fought a lot and some days I would just get too sick of it and stay home. That explains Dad's concern.

'Look me in the eye Bells and tell me this isn’t about Nathan.' I found Julian saying while lying down beside me on the bed.

'It's not about Nathan Julian.' I told him but my voice came out barely audible and I found them both glaring at me.

'I'll eat him alive!' Julian said with his teeth clenched.

'What does this guy want from you? Hasn’t he done enough already?' I found my Dad yelling to no one in particular.

Despite their anger and fury, in times like these I felt safe and warm. No matter what happens to me in this harsh world, these two have got my back. And I am so very thankful for it.

'Don't you worry you two, I am a big girl and I can take care of myself. You've raised me right.' I said in attempt to cheer them up and smiled with my head held high at them.

I will not allow Nathan to hurt me again.

Not a chance in the world.

Mainly because of these two.

Day two of staying sick in bed sucked more than the first one. The sun was shining bright, again, and I was bored out of my mind. My dad had to go to work today and Julian was at a new job interview.

I tried watching a movie, reading The Fault in our Stars again, and even cooking but nothing occupied my mind enough to get those horrible thoughts of Nathan out of my mind.

I wanted to talk to him. But then I didn’t know what I would say. And a small devilish part in me that I personally hate at the moment was hoping that he would call me. But that was not going to happen anytime soon even in my wildest dreams. And that's why ladies and gents I hate this part of me. Because it sets my expectations high and by the passing minute that he doesn’t call or text crushes me even more.

I re-read the same line in said book over and over again trying to concentrate but my mind was captured to something completely different that I was not capable of focusing whatsoever.  I decided to close the book and try my help at sleep but again, that wasn't very successful.

I then found the door bell ringing and it startled me. I wasn't expecting anyone and both Dad and Julian told me that they were not too. Maybe it was Amelia coming to check on me or Adriana. God bless them, their constant calls has been a great deal of support during my emotional and physical breakdown.

I was thrilled to open the door to find any of my two best friends. Now that can keep my mind off of things. I rushed to the door and fixed my hair to make it at least look presentable and took a quick glance to my choice of clothing. I was wearing my favorite PJs with large cupcakes on the top and hundreds of tiny cupcakes on the bottoms.

Opening the door with a huge grin on my face and with, may I add, great force due to my enthusiasm, I was utterly and completely shocked. This is not Amelia's cute face or Adriana's overly excited spirit. This was freshly shaved Nathan Scott in a Ralph Lauren shirt and faded jeans and perfume that was way too good for my liking.

 Oh Crap.