Diamond (On Hold)

Chapter Twelve

This was such a bad idea. Why didn't I cancel this whole thing altogether. God, I am so stupid.

With Jacob by my side, Nathan opposite and food all over the table, I couldn't, not in a million years be more embarrassed than I am right now. Jacob was telling Nathan of how 'unprofessional' sports players are in their work. Since what all they do is play and their agencies just arrange the remaining things. Nathan was remaining silent the entire time (thankfully) because I am positive that if he uttered a word back this would be a blood bath.

Honestly Nathan hasn't said anything since we first arrived here. As soon as I got in the restaurant I saw his grin (way too wide for my liking) and when he saw Jake coming en route, the grin vanished and was replaced by a glare and frown that could kill.

I kept reminding myself, Jake is your boy friend, and you should be on his side. But he just kept saying so very offensive words to Nathan, it was horrible. He just can't think before he speaks, it's disgusting.

It was then that I questioned myself, why am I even with him? There's nothing tying us together. Nothing.

But I was just scared of being on my own and it was wrong, very wrong. I shouldn't do this, I shouldn't keep him hanging whilst torturing myself in the process, I just can't do this anymore.

I was completely blocked out but I suddenly my attention was drawn back to the current conversation. Nathan's face was red with fury and Jacob was adding fuel to fire about players dating hot actresses or models for the sake of publicity. I then saw Nathan open his mouth and I had to do something to stop him, because whenever he started there was nothing on this planet that could stop him for punching Jacob to death, after of course making his point via carefully chosen words.

'Nathan just ignore him.' I found myself saying.

Jacob looked at me with complete shock on his face, and shooting daggers with his eyes. I never replied back to Jake, ever. I just agreed with whatever he said because I thought there was no point after all. But I couldn't do it anymore, not with the way he was treating Nathan.

'Excuse me? What did you just say?'

'Jacoub, what you said was really inappropriate and I think you should apologize to Nathan.'

'Which one are you dating huh?' Julian said with fury evident on his face.

'Excuse me?' Now it was my time to be shocked and angry.

'You know what. My pals were right after all you know. You and I should have been over months ago but I just kept defending you. We're over. Now you can have you perfect relationship with him. Just don't come for me when he dumps you too.' Julian said while quickly gathering his things from the table and pulling his chair back and exiting the restaurant.

I was in complete and utter shock. What just happened? Did he really break up with me in front of Nathan? Hang on a second; did he just break up with me because I was defending Nathan?

How was I ever dating him?!

As I Nathan was reading my mind, I found him saying, 'How were you ever dating him?'

'Oh my God I am so embarrassed.' I found myself saying after a few minutes of silence and realizing I was opening my mouth far too long.

'I am sorry for, that. I really have no idea what has gotten into him.' As I said these words I have realized, was he ever even normal? I guess not.

'Hey, don't apologize. I'm sorry you had to go through this. I'm here for you know?'

'I can't believe he just broke up with me. I mean, I can't seriously process it. After all the shit I have kept up from him!'

'Now you don't have to. Think of the positive side here.'

'I mean, he embarrassed me. He never cared enough, his parents were ridiculous, and his siblings, God, I hated them! And yet I had to be there with them every single end of the week. Every single one, can you believe that?'

'I can't possibly. I'm pretty certain you have been through a lot.'

'And my God, his gifts. His gifts were horrible. I don't want to sound like a spoiled girl but my own Grandmother thinks of more romantic gifts.'

Nathan then started laughing hysterically. I looked at him and realized during my blabbering session, I have completely forgotten he was even there. I looked at his face and the way it was getting redder and he was choking and I started laughing hysterically as well.

'I have just been dumped and I am laughing. How messed up is that?' I said admits my laughter.

'I have been made a fool of the entire evening and I am laughing too. I guess we're a couple of messed up idiots, don't you think?'

'That is absolutely true. Let's go for Pizza, and ice-cream! God, ice cream.' I said while staring ahead dreamingly.

'Apart from the fact that we just ate, yeah let's! Your car or mine?'

'I don't even have a car! Jacob drove me here.' I said then started laughing again. I must be going crazy.

Nathan started laughing again. Then he got money out of his wallet, placed it on the table and said, 'It's my car then.'

'Let's run!' I said while still laughing. I must be drunk. But I haven't had anything at all, ever. Is this what it feels like to be drunk?

'Okay Diamond, let's run.' He said with equal enthusiasm.

Nathan then held my hand, and it was raining heavily. I buttoned my coat and tied my boots, he did the same and on the count of three, we started running like lunatics.

And to quote one of my favorite books to describe it perfectly, 'and in this moment, I swear we were infinite.'