This Is Not Poetry, My Soul Has Sprung a Leak

Tonight Is the Lonliest Night of All

Shit

I don't ever remember feeling this lonely in my entire fucking life

Got my ass out here in Houston with none of my friends...well...my friend

I don't know any females around

I don't have a man, and it's killing me tonight

Laying lonely tonight, I'm really horny tonight

I can do it myself, but I want someone to do it for me tonight

I don't have energy

The loneliness is draining me

I pick up my cell and realize 90% of these numbers are just taking up space

dayum....space

There's a lot of it in this apartment and even more in my bed

I bought extra pillows just t make it seem full

I use them at night to hold on to, imagining they are somone who cares

They are also there to catch my tears

The tears come out at night, when I think about when I once was loved

Thinking if it was just a marage at the time, because I wanted it so bad

I can do bad all by myself

Shit, my sex would feel better if it was me and someone else

Tossing and turning, trying to figure this out

How long is thig going to last?

I'll just make myself extra busy to pass time

Have I really run everyone off? Got dayum, oh well

I'll keep writing when I feel this way

This is all I have

My pen, my pad, my thoughts, mixed emotions, broken heart,

wondering mind, thumping pussy, no one to call or to call me

Tonight Is the Lonliest Night of All

So I'm going to get out this corner of my bedroom

Crawling to my bed in tears, big box of tissues, slugglishly getting under my sheets

Grabbing my pillows, sobbing like a baby all over again

Dayum, I wish I was right now

At least then, somone would be around to wipe my tears

Someone to just be there, in 3D form

Saying my prayers before I close my eyes

Eyes closed tight, tight as I'm holding this pillow

Tears still rolling down my face

My eyes still shut, but the tears still crawls it's way through

I say 'I love you'

But there's no one here to say

'I love you too'

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