so I gotta rant about my parents, mainly hoe my mums a complete psychopath and how my dad deserved better their whole marriage
(Not asking for sympathy because it's better now but I'm just ranting because bitch of a mum!!!!)
so let's start when my mum basically told me she married my dad because of me, she said "grandma told me to marry him to help support you (me) " and she said she never wanted to marry him
and I just sat there like, ??? Literally I'm the human embodiment of ??? Around my mum
and she constantly talks shit about my dad saying how he watches porn (he's a grown man with no girlfriend give him a damn break you bitch) and how he smokes weed (that's because of stress because he has a low paying job, his wife hated him and his daughter is a ball of constant anxiety, I don't blame him), and she always tells me not to tell him this stuff but as soon as he picks me up I shut the door and turn to him and tell him everything she said
then my dad told me that when he first dated my mum, she was completely normal and fine and then they got married and it's like she showed her crazyness finally! They were married for 15/16 years and the whole time she never believed dad loved her, he would tell her everyday and she never believed it
and when your dad tells you that your mum tried to herself the day she left him, after not knowing that for two years, it hits you. I told her and she literally said "well next time I do I'll make sure I do it properly"
I cried and she ignored it like nothing happened
And she constantly tries to win me and my brother over by buying us clothes and stuff and it doesn't work!! You have to be a good mother to us to make us like you!
My dad had told her years ago that they should divorce and sell the house and split the money, but she said no because she knew me and my brother wouldn't stay with her
and fuck, my mum hit my dad right in front of me and I cried because she left the house because the police said to leave and she ends up in hospital and I don't understand her!!! She fucking punched him, in front of her daughter, what kind of parent does that
to put it simply, my mum is a sociopathic abusive (to me, she took a slap to the thigh too far. Dad once told me she hit me so much that I came to him crying and he asked if I wanted to call the police and I don't even remember it happening, and now that I was told, I literally said, why tf did I say no) and a liar, she made up 4 ways as to why she lost her job as a nurse, telling me and my brother the lie that she was helping a patient and no one would help but telling my dad something else.
And my dad, he's so much happier now that she's not around as much, and I realised how sad it must have been to be with her because they never cuddled or hugged or held hands or do anything a couple would do. They would yell and scream at each other and me and my brother would be in the middle of it
I hated my childhood so much, and I'm so fucking happy that she moved out and left us, she's an idiot. And my dad, he's so much nicer and he treats me like a father should do! He tells me when he's proud of me and he hugs me and he tells me goodnight and tucks me in and he use to read to me every night, and he makes hella good cups of tea!!
do you see a difference because I do and the thought of leaving for university makes me sad because I don't wanna leave my dad here alone :(
I also don't wanna see my dad physically die alone, like I want him to remarry some nice girl and be happy!! He deserves it, he's so nice and I'm tearing up because he deserves someone good
I joked saying what if I marry Luke Hemmings and move to Australia and my dad said "you can live in Crewe (where I live) with him and be happy, if he loves you he'll drop everything to be with you" and if that's not the nicest thing you've heard then idk what is because he knows I deserve someone great and we joke about my brother being gay (he got those vibes) and dads funny and we watch tv shows together and he takes us to theme parks and he's such a great dad
This turned from "I hate my mum!" To "I love my dad he's too sweet for the world"
also another thing to add, dad takes lots of photos of us kids through our lives and then there was mum who was barely in any and if that doesn't prove something idk what will
sigh
I hope your parents are nice and kind to you and they accept you and they're like my dad and if you have a parent like my mum, then I'm sorry that you do and when you're old enough, drop contact and leave!! Because I'm doing that the first chance I get
(900+ words wow ok I'm done thank you)
