You Must Understand

Little Light

I have little left to write. There is a specific way of writing guides. Other than being cryptic and long, they must include specific things. Such as rules, helpful methods of survival, ways of keeping oneself occupied. Towards the end of the guide, writers usually shed light on who they were and who they are now.

When I arrived here I was 14. However that is not when I was taken. I was taken 6 months before my 14th birthday by the same Organisation. Approximately 18 months. I have no memory of that time. But I remember everything beforehand. I wasn't some ignorant child. No. I was alone in the world, my family are on the same standard as the Organisation. I was looking into my family when I stumbled upon this knowledge. I won't share with you what I knew. I consider it personal. However I can share my thoughts and opinions.

If you imagine what this Organisation is capable of and what they do, and similar gangs who do the same, if you imagine this all as some large sadistic game. Imagine it. Picture it. Frame it. The world all the ignorant humans are a part of, is simply a minigame. Something only some people are bothered with, something some people prefer. It is not essential.

That was and still is my perspective. In a game, there is always a chance of improving your status, getting better and your character moving higher up. Becoming of importance. You usually do this in real life by career. My career, occupation, has improved. In Rehabilitation, you have the power to go from tortured, to torturer, to onlooker. There is always a chance for a less horrible option. Until your options actually start to become good.

I was naïve. I was not ignorant but I was still only a child. I wasn't strong. My fighting skills have improved, I am stronger and I am smarter. I can now use different techniques and methods, I can now fight and think at the same time. I have also lost my humanity. My hatred for the Organisation is strong, do not mistake this for vengeance for all the people who have suffered. I am no longer that small child. If I seek revenge, it will be out of blood lust.

I was never good at school. I didn't have good grades and I barely turned up to class. I was smart but not good. That caused people to underestimate me. Here, you must not overestimate but you must not do the opposite. If by chance you didn't come alone or you recognise someone, do not associate, communicate, or interact. They will know who you knew. They will do their best to separate you. It is not worth it.

Imagine this is school and everyone got separated into new classes. You meet new people and you spend the majority of your time with them. It is the same here. And the majority of time is barely any, meaning those you once knew get less, which will be nothing.

Remember who you were, and make improvements. I've improved since I first came here. I am a better judge of character, I am smarter, I am stronger, I am independent etc. Do not fixate on the negatives, there are too many.

From this guide you should be able to tell a lot from my experience. You can use that to create a persona for me. Don't. It might help you but it most likely won't. Overcome your fears here. Get stronger here. Maybe one day you will be the saviour this place needs. You probably won't. Don't let that bother you. This is not a movie. This is your life.

Notice how I rarely refer to you as if you are not an Inmate. I recognise the possibility but I do not expect it nor do I wish for it. Be careful. You are wing one. You have a lot of skills and capabilities. Do not forget them. They are useful. It's what will help keep you alive. The wings are ranked in level of danger. I mentioned how wing three were so violent and aggressive they got moved into solitary. They are still less dangerous. That is because wing one is also capable of the same but smart enough not to try the pointless. Wing one are cautious, intelligent, wary, strong, powerful etc. They are thinkers. They can use brain power as well as muscle power when in conflict. That is what makes them dangerous. Their skill to avoid combat and to use it as a necessity. Do not be afraid of your fellow wing members. They are not dangerous to you.

Do not mistake this as hope. I do not believe wing one can overpower the Organisation. Working alone nor together. Even if all wings teamed up, they would not succeed. I needn't tell you why. You should figure that out by yourself. Within your wing, if you can spot the newbies, help each other. Do not create a new group amongst yourself because that will segregate the wing. Segregated wings fail and burn. Do not exclude anyone. If someone wants to associate, do so. Regardless of any thought. On instinct you should accept.