Bearing a Marcos

Twelve

"Winter!" halos atakihin ako sa puso ng makita ko kung sino ang kausap niya

"Daddy I'm here!" sigaw nito at tumingin ulit sa lalakeng kaharap niya ngayon

He looked at me as if I'm a criminal. Nakita ko ang pag ngisi niya sa panginginig ng kamay ko damn hands. I need to get Winter out of here.

"So how old are you again?" Storm asked habang titig na titig sa bata

"I'm already Five" at ipinakita niya pa ang limang maliliit na daliri niya

"Where's your Mommy?" halos maubusan ako ng dugo sa tanong ni Storm

"Winter let's go we need to feed Nemo he might be hungry" saka ko ito kinarga ngunit naramdaman ko ang kamay niya sa balikat ko bago pa ako makaalis

"What's the rush Tyrone? I'm still talking to the kid, right Winter?" Tumango naman ito habang masayang nakangiti

"So Winter where's your Mommy? Is she here?" kita ko ang pag hihintay sa mata niya he looks really desperate. Umiling naman si Winter "In your house then?" he smiled and about to reach for his face

"I don't have a Mommy" he stopped in mid air after what Winter said

"W-what?" tumingala naman ang bata kaya napayuko ako

"I just have a Daddy but I don't have a Mommy" then he smiled to his father

"Winter you promised Nana that you will feed Nemo right?" tumango naman ito "Let's go?"

"Yes Daddy!" saka niya ako niyakap ng mahigpit at kumaway kay Storm

"Bye Mr.!" sigaw ni Winter kay Storm

Hindi na ako nag atubili pa at nag madali ako sa pag labas sa mall. Mali talaga ang pag balik dito sa Pilipinas hindi ko inakalang makakasalubong namin si Storm!

I rushed to our house pero I make sure I'm driving safely specially I'm with Winter. Sinalubong ako ng mabangong amoy ng Cookies.

"Nana I'm home! Let's feed Nemo!" saka ito nag tatalon at nag pabuhat kay Mama

"Welcome back Apo I baked cookies! Did you enjoy at the mall?" Mama asked Winter at tumango naman ito

"Yes Nana I even made a new friend and he looks just like me!" nawala naman ang ngiti sa labi ni Mama

"Ma we need to talk" napatingin naman ito sakin at binitawan si Winter "Go Winter feed Nemo pero konti lang ha" paalala ko sakanya

"Yes Daddy!" saka ito nag tatakbo malapit sa fish tank

"Did he meet him?" tumango ako "Is he going to take Winter?" nakita ko ang pag-aalala sa muka ni Mama

"No, I won't let him Ma" napaupo siya sa sofa at tinignan si Winter

"Still... he's the father" napahilamos ko ang kamay ko sa aking muka. I know and I can't do anything about it "Should we go back?" Umiling ako

There's no use of running away. Pwede kaming bumalik sa Canada pero alam kong susundan niya lamang kami doon. It's better to stay here, Winter is doing good so it must be okay.

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"Burger!"

"No! I want Pizza!"

"We always have Pizza! Aren't you tired of them?"

"Never!"

Napailing ako dahil sa pag tatalo ng dalawa. Pero hindi ko maiwasang hindi mapangiti lalo na ngayong maayos ang buhay namin.

"Mama I want Pizza please" my son pouted this kid really knows my weakness

"Okay Okay we will have Pizza" sa sobrang tuwa niya eh hinalikan niya ako sa pisngi

"Yehey! Heard that Daddy? Mama said we will have Pizza today! Blee!" saka ito nag tatakbo sa sala at nanuod ng TV

"How's work?" I looked at him and smiled

"It's fine, nag aadjust pa ako pero ayos naman walang pinag kaiba sa trabaho ko noon" humilig naman siya sa kitchen counter at pinag pantay ang tingin namin

"Sunny I told you pwede ka namang sa Hospital na lang mag trabaho I can give you work" sinubuan ko siya ng mansanas na hiniwa ko kaya nanahimik siya

"Tyrone I told you I wanna stand on my own. Plus you helped us alot already! I can't accept anymore baka mabaon na ako sa utang sayo" saka ako tumawa

"We treat you as a family already Sunny. And family help each other, right?" Tinigil ko ang ginagawa ko at tinignan siya "Mama treats you as her own and she treats Winter as a real grandchild too. And I treat you as my own Sister"

"I know pero iniisip lang din kita" kumunot naman ang noo nito

"What do you mean?"

"Wala kang lovelife dahil saamin ni Winter kasi akala nila ikaw ang Daddy niya" he laughed

"But I'm really his Daddy" inirapan ko naman siya

"I mean his Papa. At pakiramdam ko hindi ka makakakita ng para sayo kung nakadikit kami lagi sainyo" hinawakan niya ang mag kabilang balikat ko at nginitian ako

"I'm not looking for one Sunny cause I've already found her but I need to wait first dahil hindi ko pa panahon ngayon" saka niya ginulo ang buhok ko

"Her? You mean nag babalik loob ka na nga?" He chuckled and pinched my nose

"I'll just be with Winter" saka niya ako iniwan doon

Pag kita kong nakaalis na siya napahawak agad ako sa dibdib ko at hinalungkat ang drawer kung saan nakatago ang gamot ko. Nanginginig kong ininom iyon at naupo sa lapag. I've been getting worse and that scares me. Ayaw kong iwang mag-isa si Winter. Not now.

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NOTE: First and maybe last note ko na ito hahaha! Keme lang! Eto seryoso na. Baka hindi ako makapag update next week dahil mabuting mag aaral ako at kailangang mag review for Assessment! Dito nakasalalay ang kinabukasan ko Lol! Since tatlong Major iyon baka One week akong walang update but don't worry pag tapos non regular na ang updates! Yey! Yun lang. Bye. Hahaha!