I am sorry, please believe me i know i was wrong but i couldn't help it at that moment i wasn't thinking right, my mind was drawing blanks at that moment, i didn't know what i was saying what i was doing but even at that time i knew i am not going to hide it from you. You deserved to know the truth because it was about you, it was for you, i was trying to protect something in my mind only after i calmed down i realized i screwed up. I shouldn't have done it. Listen to me i know you are right that i didn't have right to go behind your back, i shouldn't have betrayed you in such lowly way but at that moment i couldn't, i wasn't able to do what was right, i gave up in the face of wrong path. I thought i was saving someone from pain, the pain they had felt by being away from you but even knowing the fact that they were being selfish, asking me do such thing, i couldn't tell them no. I was defeated by overwhelming sadness of theirs and now when everything is over i am the one who lost everything. I am sinking in depths of despair watching you both standing on shore still far apart from each other, no change whatsoever in what you are sharing presently with no plan of igniting a past flame already extinguished. But here i am, guilty as charged, yet the one who took the most brunt of this damage. I am the one who will look at your face and regret every single mistake i did at that day, regret for making you hate me. I am the one who lost even after trying so hard to stay between lines i lost hard and the most painful thing is if i was at your place even i wouldn't have forgiven myself but i am still hoping for forgiveness because you are a dear person to me. You are like a sister to me and parting with family is never easy. But if you can't forgive me you know that you can't be blamed, because you were innocent all this time, you didn't expect me to do this to you, i am sorry please don't hate me, i can't even use the excuse of being a human, it wasn't a mistake it was a blunder on my part. Please don't close yourself to others please because of me don't stop trusting on those who are close to you please don't suffer. I am sorry for making yoy suffer, for making you go through this. I am so so sorry. Please
