Bottled Feelings

Lost Soul

I want to go somewhere faraway.
I want to go somewhere where I can feel okay.
I want to go somewhere where I can lose the pain.
I want to go somewhere where I can find myself again.

Because deep inside me, I know that this isn't me.
Deep inside me, I know I have changed a lot.
Deep inside me, I knew I wanted to be fine again.
Deep inside me I knew that I needed to find me again.

I needed to find my soul.
That soul that used to be full of passion.
That soul that used to be so pure with innocence.
That soul that was filled with love.

I needed to find my mind.
That mind that used to believe that everything is gonna be alright.
That mind that used to be filled with positivity.
That mind that was killed by my own thoughts whom never stop haunting  me each and every night.

I needed to find my heart.
That heart that used to believe in love and destiny.
That heart that used to be so pure.
That heart that has never been hurt.

I was just another lost soul.
Wanting and waiting to be found.
A simple lost girl.
Whom wanted to feel special & loved.

I was just another lost girl.
With a lost soul.
With a lost mind.
And a lost heart.

I was just another lost girl, that was blinded by all the pain in life.
Another girl, that just wanted to be fine.
Another girl, whom was so sick and tired of facing reality.

Another girl whom is lacking of love.
Another girl waiting to be noticed.
Another girl that just want to feel important.
Another girl that just wanted to be good enough.

I'm just another lost girl wanting to wander the world.
I can wander off all alone, all by myself.
I know I'll wonder if someone will miss me while I'm gone.
I know I'll wonder what they'll think of me when I'm gone.

I know I'll wonder if someone would ever miss my existence.
I know I'll wonder if someone would even care with me coming back again.
I know I'll wonder if I'll meet someone new.
I know I'll wonder if I get to make new memories.

I know i'll wonder and might miss everyone beside me.
But I just really want to get lost and wander the world.
Because somehow there's a part of me that is missing.
And who knows what might happen when I wander off the world?

Who knows if I'll ever feel that love that I was lacking off?
Who knows if I will ever find my own mind again?
Who knows If get to find my lost soul?
Who knows? Fate knows.

I'm just another lost soul wanting to be found...

~ teryn gianna