Bottled Feelings

Blanked Thoughts

Heart is breaking.
Lips are trembling.
Mind is aching.
Eyes are weeping.

Sitting on a corner.
Staring at the ceiling.
Wondering what's happening.
Overthinking everything.

Blanked thoughts
Blanked heart.
Blanked soul.
Blanked mind.

I lied.
I cried.
I died.
But I smiled and said "I'm fine."

They asked me why I couldn't sleep at night.
I couldn't answer so I just faked a smile.
The real answer was I am slowly drowning every night.
Drowning by my own thoughts that makes my head busy at night.

My demons kept me awake.
They were always behind my shadows.
They had always haunted me every night.
They were always there to kill me each and every night.

The pain keeps growing.
My mind keeps sinking.
All I think about is dying.
I had forgotten that I was living.

The pain keeps growing.
And suddenly I felt empty.
I lost myself.
And then I knew, numbness is worse than pain.

They say "Pain demands to be felt."
I guess they were right all along.
I wanted to stop but I can't.
My demons kept whispering yes.

I wanted to be fine.
But all I think about is this damn life.
I knew I was lost.
I was lost, in my crappy mind.

Who is this person?
I don't know anymore.
What happened to me?
I don't know anymore.

Heart is breaking.
Lips are trembling.
Mind is aching.
Eyes are weeping.

Blanked thoughts
Blanked heart.
Blanked soul.
Blanked mind.

Tomorrow is another day, I can't wait to pretend that I'm fine! : )

teryn gianna