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My ADD.

So as I have said,

I have ADD.

This makes procrastination easier.

I can blame it all on,

"Oh! My ADD distracted me! I'm so sorry!"

But I don't.

Now, I have impulsive ADD.

Meaning that I have a more energetic and jumpy kind of ADD.

Which meant that I didn't do as well as most on tests.

A test that I should spend 5 minutes in I would spend about 8 minutes because I was distracted by everything else in my mind.

So, me and my parents decided we should use medication so I could focus.

I have to admit,

I.

Hated.

It.

Everything was a haze.

Is that what it's like to be a normally focused mind?

How can people never live in the moment?

I felt so focused I would think about one thing when it was time to think about another.

It was literally a haze for me.

It's weird that's how somebody lives.

No offense but,

I honestly feel a little bit bad for people who live in a world focused on something else other than everything.

I don't focus.

And you might feel bad for me because of it.

But before I dive more deeply into the controversial topic that I made with my mind,

Let me explain the haze to you.

So imagine the glaze from a glaze donut.

That's where I get the word haze from.

Now, you, are holding a camera.

You look through it and, woah, the world is high definition.

You can see everything perfectly.

Now you always look at things through that high definition camera.

But every time you switch to a different object,

A layer of that glaze covers your lens.

So now, that glaze has covered up the wonderful world of yours and all you see is that.

Now imagine that again, but this time...

Imagine that glaze as every subject in school,

Every difficulty you over come,

Every problem you face,

And the camera is your mind.

...

Woah.

Thats how I imagine people's, who don't have ADD, minds.

Now how I imagine ADD is just the camera.

Everything high definition and the world is clear and it's great.

So I wonder,

How can you live like everything is just fine and dandy when your mind is being suffocated by every day life?

I live just fine.

You'll know when something is wrong when I start constantly thing about one thing.

I will never know what's wrong with people without ADD until they tell me.

It's not stressful, though.

Because I will never think about it for a second longer than I should.

Sooooo,

If you actually bothered to read all of this please, please, tell me how you do it.

How you get through it.

Ato de watakushi no tomo hito!

Speaking of pusheen cat....

THATS WHAT MY NEXT CHAPTER IS ABOUT!!!

....kind of......