Last time I said something like that I talked about how I wanted to kill my self and my depression.
And this time, it's LGBT+
So... I'm asexual panromantic.
And... I didn't- I don't- ugh.
Um... my sexuality has been... difficult.
I... honestly really felt unibinary or nonbinary... and, sometimes, I felt like a boy.
I remember... um, I was a little kid and a boy asked me why I loved pink and princesses so much, and my only comeback, I was like four, was,'because I'm a lady,' and him, older than me, goes,'are you sure about that?' And this 2008 so LGBT+ is a bad word and you don't talk about it.
Anyways, I was shocked, I told him,'of course!' And then, me over thinking things, thought, am I though? And so I decided to conduct a little test with, What do you feel like?
And I honestly thought I was a boy, and I felt so strongly, that I seriously got lost a minute thinking that I was a boy.
And then I went, no, no, I'm a girl. But I stopped whatever princess imaginary game I was playing and just thought.
And then before I cut my hair, one morning I just looked at myself and I did the test, what do you feel like? And I looked at my face, not my body, or hair, or glasses, or anything but my face.
And I felt like a boy.
But another time, after I cut my hair, a boy asked me at 'recess', 'Are you a girl or a boy?' And I told him I was a girl, thought about it more and I was like I'm actually non-binary, but when I thought about it some more, I was like, I like making girls and boys happy. I like being sassy like a girl but goofy and confident like a boy. So... I'm unibinary now?
I pushed it off, I went, I'm not going to worry about it now. I'm just gonna be me.
But I kept thinking about it.
And then... transgender bathrooms came up and I started thinking more and more about it.
Then, today I was cuddling my sick little brother, being the big spoon as always, and we were watching Pokémon X and Y season 2 on just the perfect episode where Ash battles the fairy gym.
And the gym leader was also a fashion designer, you know, as they are.
A you know Japan, their outfits are insanely awesome and I started really loudly, 'Slay, queen!'
Yes, I actually said that.
And I actually felt like a girl, with the power of Pokémon and that one time my friend called me Sylveon.
So... gender fluid?
We'll see.
Good bai for now!
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