Alluring One || Naruto Fanfic [BoyxBoy]

C7: One's Feelings

Yoichi's View

My heart felt like it had just been grabbed and shredded to pieces slowly and painfully. Did he seriously just kiss me for a fucking act? He used me. Chojuro fucking used me! I shook in anger and shoved him away from me.

"You bastard!" I hissed out in anger.

Chojuro raised his eyebrows at me and frowned slightly. "Me? A bastard? I was helping you out here." He stated like it was super obvious.

"How in the hell were you helping me out? You used me, Chojuro! You played with my feelings!" I yelled at him.

He had confusion written all over his face, "Played with your feelings? I didn't do that, I helped you!" He defended himself.

I clicked my tongue, "And how exactly did you do that?" I asked.

Chojuro looked me straight in the eye, "Zuko."

"What about him?" I spat out.

"He was watching and I did that to protect you." Chojuro said.

My eyes widened. He kissed me to protect me from Zuko? In what way was that supposed to help me? Was it supposed to break my heart? Make me feel like an idiot? If that's what he meant to do, then is sure as hell worked.

"How...-- Please explain how that was supposed to help me?" I asked as kindly as I could without exploding and yelling at him in anger.

Chojuro smirked and chuckled lightly. He sighed and took a step towards me, looking me straight in the eyes. I narrowed my eyes at him and took a step back in caution. Chojuro noticed this and brushed it off rather easily.

"It's rather obvious that he likes you, Yoichi. No, no, it's obvious that he lusts for you. I can tell by the way you two have been acting around each other. You're uncomfortable with all the blunt remarks he has made that are directed at you, aren't you?" Chojuro stated, looking at me for an answer.

I hesitated to answer. I didn't want Chojuro of all people to know what Zuko did to me in the alley. Knowing him, from the past and from what he did just now, he would probably text this step further than needed.

"Y-Yes..." I stuttered out. My eyes widened while I answered him. I didn't mean to anything. It just came out.

"I thought so." He said.

I clicked my tongue, "S-So, that still doesn't m-mean that you c-can k-kiss me so s-suddenly, y-you asshole!" I spat out, "Do you h-have any idea how I feel?"

Chojuro scratched the nape of his neck, "Of course I don't. I mean, I have a general idea on how you would feel, but I'm not a 100% sure. I just did what I thought was best for you and that was kissing you in order to put the idea that you're not his into his mind." He explained like it wasn't a bad thing at all.

I winced. My heart felt like a hand had been thrust into my chest and was squeezing my heart to its breaking point. My hand unconsciously made its way over my heart and tugged at my shirt. I bit my lip and gazed down at the ground. He really didn't get it. I would have thought that Chojuro of all people would get that he was hurting me unintentionally. Seems like I was wrong.

I grit my teeth together and let my hands fall to my side. I couldn't keep holding back like this. This just wasn't me. I was usually bold and open about my opinions, but why couldn't I say anything this time around? Why? 'I know what the best thing to do in this situation, yet I won't do it. I just need to get this over with. Chojuro will understand. He will. Just do it, Yoichi. Say what you feel. Let all that you've been holding back out now. Just do it!' I told myself, trying my best to tell Chojuro how I felt.

'You can do it!'

I opened my eyes and looked Chojuro right in the eyes.

"What?" He asked me, his eyes full of innocence.

"Don't what me, Chojuro. Not now." I hissed out. I slowly took steps closer to him, as he watched me suspiciously. I grabbed a hold of his shirt's collar and yanked him down closer to my height. "H-Hey--" I glared at him. He shut up.

I took a deep breath. It was time to tell him how I felt. There was no holding back... Yeah, no holding back, right?

"What happened? What happened to the Chojuro I knew from only a week or so ago, huh? It seems like I lost him all of a sudden. The person I am looking at and talking to right now isn't the Chojuro I grew up to be best friends with. This is someone new, a complete stranger." I spat out.

His eyes widened at this.

"The Chojuro I grew to know was someone who I could admire and look up to. He was someone I cared for, someone I adored..." Someone I liked. I let out a deep breath, "But now he's gone. He's gone because this kid named Zuko came strolling along into his life and changed him for the worse. I want the Chojuro I knew back. The Chojuro who would blush when I looked at him, the one who would get flustered when I winked at him, the one who didn't let anyone get to him!"

My eyes began to get watery and I gazed down at his chest as I continued to talk. I didn't want him to see me cry.

"Just because Zuko came into our friendship doesn't mean that you should allow him to get to you. I get it, he can be a lust filled little dick at times, but he won't be taking me away from you, Chojuro. I will always be your friend and I want you to always remember that. Now please, for me, please stop acting like an asshole! I didn't appreciate the fact that you kissed me to make Zuko go away. Y-You could have e-easily t-told him t- f-fuck off in-instead of playing w-with my feelings, dammit."

His eyes were wide open in shock. He wasn't expecting that from me at all. Normally, I wasn't the type of person to hold back with what I had to say, but I feel like he noticed that no matter how hard I tried to not hold back, I still ended up doing so. I held back because of him and he knew that. He knew I couldn't bare to hurt his feelings. I cared too much about the relationship that we had. Not only that, but he could tell that I was close to crying. It wasn't unusual for me to cry around him. The reason why I was crying was what was unusual. I was crying because of him and because of my fear of losing him.

"Yoichi..."

Tears dripped down my cheeks. I let go of him and shoved him away from me. My body shook as the pain and realization of what had happened finally took full effect. "P-Please, just f-fuck off." I said.

"Yoichi."

I wiped my tears away and sniffled. "Stop, just leave me alonex alright?" I pleaded. I couldn't let him see me like this. I was a mess.

I turned around and started to walk away. I wanted to be gone from his sight. I was crying. I swore under my breath for being an idiot. I shouldn't have let this affect me that bad to where I would start to cry. This is just embarrassing.

"Yoichi!" He yelled. Arms pulled me back and I fell back into his chest. My eyes widened slightly at this. I shook my head and tried breaking out of his grip. "I said to let go of me!" I whined.

He rested his chin on my shoulders and I could feel his nose brushing against my neck. I froze in shock. My cheeks grew warm and I shifted in his arms uncomfortably. "I'm not letting you go. Not now, not ever." He muttered, his breath causing shivers to run up my body.

I slumped over in defeat.

"Good," He sighed. He hugged me a little harder. "Thank you. Now just hear me out."