In Love With You

Chatper 6

It's been a week since I've last seen or spoken to Chris but I am getting closer with the BVB boys especially Ashley. I don't really talk anymore to the motionless in white boys. I get messages from them all but Chris.

"Hey Mel" I looked up and saw Ashley I smiled. "What are you doing?" He asked sitting next to me on my bed "stuff online" he rasied his eyebrow "porn" I slapped his chest "ow!" He said "don't be gross" I replied. "No just stuff im bored" I replied.

"Well I have good news motionless boys are coming over" he said my eyes widened. "Oh" I replied looking at the screen "why aren't you excited" he asked "I am" non of the boys know what happened with Chris.

"Um ok...." He said unsure. "Anyway I came to tell you that be ready in 40 minutes. Then we are going on a trip pack cloths for a week pack warm clothes" he said I nodded. Once he left I locked the door. I walked in my bathroom. I saw my best friend my blade.

I locked the door and grabbed the blade. I cut down on my wrist, since the thing with me and chris I've been cutting repeating his words in my head. I sighed and looked at my arms about 20 cuts on both. I jumped in the shower and wash the blood off and washed my hair.

I stepped out and changed into a Marilyn Manson shirt, jumper and tights. I put on some eyeliner and put my hair into a messy bun. I grabbed my suitcase and started packing all different stuff I need. Including my blades

"Mel come on" I heard Andy say. I opended my door and walked downstairs and put on my platform boots. I walked in the kitchen and saw Chris and the boys talking. "Hey!" Ashley said they looked at me including Chris. "Hey" everyone waved but Chris. I also saw Gaia and the other girls there.

"Hey Mel we called holly she's gonna be over soon" Jinxx said I nodded. Just then the door bell rang I ran to it and hugged holly. Holly knows about what happened with Chris. "Hey nerd" I said "sup shrub" I laughed. "Let's go" jinxx said.

We walked out to the van me and holly sat right at the back. It went Andy Jinxx in the front. Then Ricky, Ryan and ashley. Then Josh, ghost and CC. Then kylie Ryan-ashley and Jake. Then Vinny, Chris and Gaia. Then me and holly.

"How long is the trip" holly called out "about 8 hours" Ashley replied I nodded. "Yo nerd put music on" holly said I pulled out my phone and smile.

"I AM A WEAR THAT I AM AN ASSHOLE I REALLY DONT CARE ABOUT ALL OF THAT THOUGH, COS HONESTLY IM JUST LIKE YOU!" Blasted through my phone. I sang along laughing.

I let me whole list play I looked out the window looking at the snow that started to fall. "You ok?" Vinny asked I nodded. "Where gonna stop and get food!" Andy yelled we pulled over into subway yum!

Me and holly jumped out of the car and walked in. I walked to the bathroom and did my business. I walked out and ordered my food. After I sat down on my phone waiting for holly to finish.

After I ate half of the sandwich I wrapped up the other half and put it in my backpack. We then talked back to the car me and holly in the back. I could see Chris he looked so good his hair....his eyes...his voice....his smile.

I snapped out of my thoughts when he looked at me. He hurt me...."Mel put some music on" Jinxx yelled I nodded. I plugged in my portable speaker and hit random on my playlist.

Of course Motionless in white had to come on. I blushed as everyone looked at me. I changed it and put Iris on the sleeping with sirens cover.

I closed my eyes and let the music sink in. I softly started to sing with passion.

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't wanna go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
When sooner or later it's over
I just don't wanna miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

I heard clapping I opened my eyes and saw everyone clapping Chris gave me a small smile I looked away and blushed hard. "Your really good" Ryan-Ashley said "thanks" I replied quietly. We arrived the airport and Gaia started getting out "What's going on?" I asked "we are dropping Gaia off cos she has a plane to catch for a model shoot" holly said I nodded.

We jumped out of the car Chris helped her get her bags. We walked with her Chris held her hand I felt a sting in my chest.

"Alright I'll see you in 3 weeks I guess" Chris said holding her hand facing her. "Yeh I'm gonna miss you so much chris " she said.

"I love you so much baby" Gaia said "I love you so much your the one I want to spend my life with" I felt my heart break Into thousands of pieces. I felt tears in my eyes...... He will never love me

(Hey guys hope you enjoyed this chapter, I have made changes I will be posting weekly when I start school again which is in February - Mel x )