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This wasn't the first time na nakikita ni Seungcheol ang kaba sa mukha ni Seungkwan.

"Hyung! Ayos lang ba 'tong suot ko?" Seungkwan asked him for the nth time. This time, while folding and pulling up the sleeves of his cardigan. "Sht I am nervous. Sht!"

"Chill lang Seungkwan. Kanina ka pa kinakabahan dyan e bibisita lang naman yun dito. Di pa kayo ikakasal," natatawang biro ni Seungcheol tsaka siniko si Hansol sa tabi nya na nagcecellphone.

Tiningnan naman sya ni Hansol ng masama bago sinuri saglit si Seungkwan na ngayo'y nagaayos na ng buhok.

"Mukha kang ewan dyan Seungkwan. Di mo bagay. Mag sweater ka nalang like you used to wear when we're going out. Mas bagay sayo yun," suggest bigla ni Hansol.

Sabay na napatingin sina Seungkwan at Seungcheol na tila ba natigilan at nagulat sa suggestion ni Hansol. Tumigil si Hansol sa pagcecellphone nang marealize nyang nanahimik ang dalawa.

"What? I am just suggesting something good to wear?" Hansol said and shrugged his shoulders.

Seungkwan looked at the mirror once again and fixed his hair. "Okay na to. Mas manly. Para mas lalo nya akong magustuhan."

Hansol looked at his phone once again. "Kung talagang gusto ka nya, she'll like you whatever you'll wear. She wont get turned off when you wear something weird or something that's out of fashion."

Seungcheol whistles. "Galing naman ni mentor. Experienced na experienced a."

"She already told me that she liked me more than my looks. Pinaramdam nya sakin yun. But I want to make an effort at least," Seungkwan suddenly said before he searched for his phone.

Hansol suddenly stood up. He looks so mad at napansin ito ni Seungcheol psro hindi ni Seungkwan dahil busy na ito sa phone nya. "San ka pupunta Hansol?"

Hansol answered when he opened the door. "Magpapahangin lang," and closed the door loudly.

Nang makaalis si Hansol ay para namang walang pake si Seungkwan at nakangiti sa harap ng phone nya.

"Hyung! Malapit na daw sya!" Seungkwan announced while having a huge smile ngunit napalitan ito ng kunot na noo nang mapansin nyang nakacross-arms si Seungcheol at seryoso syang tinitingnan. "Problema mo?"

"Ako wala akong problema. Pero ikaw baka meron?" Seungcheol suddenly blurted.

"Ha? Di ko gets?"

"Ayokong sirain yung pagiging masaya mo pero ilang buwan ka ding nagdrama at umiyak sa amin. Ilang buwan kang nagkulong sa kwarto. Ilang buwan kang umiwas kay Hansol," Seungcheol paused. "Pero ilang linggo lang ang nakakaraan, bigla ka nalang nagkaganyan. Naaktong parang walang nangyari, naaktong larang hindi mo kahit kailan nagustuhan si Hansol."

Seungkwan suddenly became serious. Nawala ang ngiti sa mukha nito. "Hyung, I am trying to get rid of that memory. I still want to be a good friend to Hansol," Seungkwan said in a flat tone. "Hindi nga biro yung pinaranas na sakit ni Hansol sa akin, pero these past few weeks, someone healed the wounds that he caused."

"Hyung siguro hindi ka maniniwala pero yunang totoo. Wala na akong nararamdaman ni katiting para kay Hansol. Siguro bilang kaibigan meron, pero more than that? Wala na. Ubos na."

"This girl right here that I met, she gave me all her heart. She loved me more than how Hansol ever did. Kasi narealize ko na kung mahal talaga ako ni Hansol noon, dapat hindi nya ako iniwan sa ere."

Seungcheol was speechless with what he just heard from Seungkwan.

"So hindi mo parin naririnig yung explanation ni Hansol kung bakit ka nya iniwasan after ng issue?" nagtatakang tanong ni Seungcheol.

"Hindi. At kung anuman yan, wala akong pakialam," Seungkwan locked his phone and placed it inside his pocket. "Now hyung, kung ipipilit mo parin, iiwan na kita. I need to get my girl who's currently waiting for me." at nilagpasan nya si Seungcheol.

Binuksan ni Seungkwan ang pinto ngunit nagulat sya nang makita nya si Hansol na nakayuko at nasa tapat lang ng pinto. Mas lalo syang nagulat nang mapansin nyang naalog ang mga balikat nito at mapansin nyang may mga tulo ng tubig sa sahig. He's crying.

Seungkwan earned all his strength to speak up. "Excuse me Hansol. Nakaharang ka sa daan."

But Hansol didn't move a bit. Not even an inch.

"Hansol tabi."

But Hansol pretended as if he's not hearing anything.

"HANSOL ANO BA?" sigaw ni Seungkwan at tinulak na ito palayo sa dinadaanan nya at nilagpasan ito.

Ngunit mabilis na hinagip ni Hansol ang kamay ni Seungkwan. Still looking down. Napatigil sa paglakad si Seungkwan pero ayaw nyang humarap kay Hansol.

"Please..." Hansol's voice broke. "Please stay..." and he suddenly sobbed. "Dito ka lang Seungkwan please." and his grip on Seungkwan's hand tightened.

Seungkwan on the other side tried to brush off that pain inside his chest that he felt when Hansol sobbed and pleaded him to stay.

Pilit na inalis ni Seungkwan ang kamay ni Hansol habang hindi ito tinitingnan.

"I don't have the reason to stay. May naghihintay sa akin."

And Seungkwan left.