Back in the hospital

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So yesterday I went to the outpatient clinic to be assessed for an eating disorder and go figure, they hospitalize me straight away.
Tbh, its not like I am severely underweight or anything, nor am I medically unstable...but I live by myself therefore I'm not trusted to manage myself especially considering I'm a minor. And i cant blame them. I don't trust myself either; I binge all the time even though I really don't want to.
This scares me sometimes because sometimes I think I would be better off dead, the world and the people around me would be better off if I wasn't a hassle anymore. And even though I'm not planning on following through with anything I'm not sure that I wouldn't if I was in a bad frame of mind.

Anyway, I'm going to sign out now but i might put in another entry later. As always applies, message/comment if you have any questions and I'll answer them, I hope you have a good day

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