Dating Alys Perez (PUBLISHED)

Chapter 36

Chapter 36

I was running really fast. I didn't want to look back because I knew that if I did, I'd be devasted more than I ever was.

My breath was hitching and suddenly, I couldn't breathe. I clutched my hand to my chest and then as if it was the cue, the words said by Cristine echoed in my mind.

"Si... buntis si Fier, Drake. Hindi na kayo pwede ni Alys... I'm so sorry, Drake..."

It can't be Drake's right? Hindi naman niya magagawa sa akin yun... He loves me! At least that was what he said...

My phone was vibrating and so were my hands. It was Tripp.

I needed someone to talk to... I needed my best friend.

("Nasan ka na? Akala ko ba magkikita tayo?") he asked.

They said the hardest time to control your sobbing was when you're acting tough but really, all you just want to do is to breakdown. It was a tiring cycle, and damning.

I ended the call before I could even cry. Tripp had already been through hell because of me. Ayoko na hanggang ngayon isama ko pa rin siya sa problema ko. Tama naman siya, people are already hurting. Masyado ng madaming nasasaktan. Kung si Drake ang pinili ko, kailangan ko 'tong panindigan. May baby o wala, papanindigan ko 'to.

I sent him a text message instead.

'Feeling bad. Bukas na lang?'

And then I walked back to my car while crying my heart out because of the possibility that my boyfriend cheated on me and got someone pregnant. Damn if this thought didn't kill me.

As I was walking, it started drizzling. Bakit parang nakikisama pa 'yung panahon? It was like the earth was helping me wallow in my self pity. Imbes na dumiretso ako sa sasakyan ko at umuwi at umiyak, dumiretso ako sa swing na dati kong pinupuntahan. Dito yun, e. Dito ako umiiyak tuwing sinasaktan ako ni Drake dati. Nandito lahat ng masasakit na alaala namin.

Ilang beses na ba niya akong sinaktan at pinaiyak? Hindi ko na nga mabilang, e. Alam ko hindi ko naman dapat bilangin kung ilan kasi ako rin naman yung may gusto nito. I chose to love him, threfore, I chose to be hurt by him. Ganun naman talaga yun. Pag mahal mo, asahan mo na masasaktan ka. What is love without little pain?

Sa lahat ng dahilan ng pag-iyak ko sa kanya, ito na yung masasabi ko na hindi ko alam kung paano ko isasaksak sa isip ko kung paano ko tatanggapin. Damn gusto kong tanggapin pero hindi ko alam kung saan ako magsisimula.

As I was swinging myself along with my loneliness, someone tapped my back.

"Alys?"

I turned around and saw Sheen looking weirdly at me.

"Umiiyak ka ba?" he asked and then he brought out his handkerchief and offered it to me. "Oh," he said and when I was to hurt to accept it, he wiped my tears for me. "Bakit ka ba umiiyak? Panget ang umiiyak na babae. Dapat nakangiti ka lang palagi."

I missed him. Namiss ko yung pagiging palagi niyang positive. Siya lang yung taong kilala ko na positibo sa lahat ng bagay. He always knew how to see the best in someone. Kahit na masama ang trato mo sa kanya, he'll let it pass and instead find something in you na magugustuhan niya. He was always just like that. He's close to being an angel...

Instead of replying, I hugged him.

He chuckled and then patted my head. "After all these years, bata ka pa rin, Alys."

I bit my lip and smiled at the familiarity of this scenario. Para akong bumalik sa high school with Sheen here consoling me. He's still that person who waits until I stopped crying. Kaya nga ako nagkagusto sa kanya kasi alam niya kung paano ako pangitiin at patigilin umiyak. It was enough for me to like him.