Saved (Suga X Reader)

Chapter 12: Returning home

I walked fast, trying to forget the pain about leaving Suga.

Suddenly, my feet stopped. I was already outside of my house.

I walked through the big gate and on my way to the big mansion that had me trapped for 17 years.

When I walked through the door, my hands were shaking. I couldn't stop it.

Everytime Suga had been there to hold my hand, but this time, I was alone.

Suddenly, I heard footsteps.
"Young (Y/N)!! Is it you?!"

It was Suzu!

"SUZU!! I AM BACK!!" I screamed, running towards her.

She gave me a big hug.
"Nari told me, I am so sorry to not notice your feelings..."
"Don't be Suzu, this is my fight." I told her.

"Suzu, where is father?"
"He is... talking with your uncle and cousin right now.!

"WHERE?"

"In the dining hall."

I ran towards the dining hall.

I open the door.
"Stop this nonsense father."
"(Y/N)!!"

"Where have you been stupid child?!" my father said.

"I am sorry, but now I am here to take responsibility for my actions."

"We were just talking about Nari and the engagement"

Nari looked down sad, and I found myself in that situation 10 days ago.

"Stop everything here Father.
Can't you see? Both Nari and uncle don't want this."
"But we have to have an engagement!"
"And you get one too...." I said low.
"I came back to marry the man you chose for me, Father"
Both Nari and my uncle looked at me relived.

"I can't let you do that (Y/N)!!"
Nari screamed from the other end of the hall.
Nari was exuced before me. My father held me back to tell me how happy he was to have me back. I got the feeling that the only reason he was worried about me was because of this stupid engagement.

"It's not like I can let you go through it!"

"If you wanted to go through it... Why are you crying?"

"I don't want to do this, but I don't have any choice anymore. Because I tried to run away, I've hurt other people."
"Other? Who other?" Nari asked.

"Suga." I said quiet.

"Huh? What did you say?" Nari asked me.

"Nothing, I am tired so I go to bed."

I said before running away from her.

I threw the door open and closed it with a big bang. My tears started flowing. The pain was still with me. Suga was still in my heart and my love for him grew everytime I thought about him. 

He was the one I wanted to be with, and I ran away from him.

I tried to go to sleep, but the memories of Suga holding me while sleeping was still there. The tears didn't want to stop and before I knew it, I fell asleep.

And so, my regular life began again. 

I woke up, had breakfast, classes until night, dinner and so freetime.

This time, I didn't get any freetime. My freetime was used to prepare my engagement party and the wedding. I still didn't know the man who was my fiance.

And every night, I cried to my sleep, feeling lost without Suga's warmth.

I couldn't live like this anymore. I had to forget Suga, but my heart denied it.

Nari had been worried about me, but because of my schedule, I was pretty busy. 

She tried to visit to my room, but everytime she mentioned Suga, I was about to break down.

My mother always told me, "Time heals every wound".

This is the first time my mother was wrong.

No time could heal the pain of leaving Suga.

I still love Suga.

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Hey! I hope you like the chapter!
It was really hard to write this chapter, cause it is hard to connect my ideas together.
Thank you for reading it!!