Saved (Suga X Reader)

(Sequel)Chapter 3: Distance

Since that day, Suga has been texting me non-stop, but I didn't have the words to answer.
How could I possible tell him that I am not the girl he fell in love anymore?

After all the fighting about us being together, I ruined it, just after 1 month.

I was sitting in my room, trying to think about what to do.

It was hard enough to live this way, but it would get harder to sort things out.

Even my dad was accepting us! How could I say that we broke up, or ...

My phone lit up, and I checked it.

A new text from Suga, again.

-Suga💘

(Y/N), I thought you learned how to not run away, and you still did it.

Are you even the same girl as before?

Maybe I just wasted my time on you.

That was the last drop...

I know that I didn't explain myself, but saying those hurtful words to me was the end.

The only option I saw was running away, again.

My feelings knew that it would be wrong to run away, that it wouldn't be solving anything.

But I can't stay here anymore.

I jerked up from my bed and went to my closet. I took my favorite clothes and started to put them in a bag.

I looked around in the room, wondering what to bring. My hand was about to grab the book I was currently reading, but decided to let it stay.

This book reminds me too much of Suga and our story.

I shaked my head and grabbed my phone, along with the charger.

My feet quietly tapped on the floor, trying not to wake anybody. I just have so say goodbye to Nari before I leave. I looked around to see if anyone was up.
Everyone was sleeping. Lucky me.
As I quietly arrived to Nari's room, I heard a faint voice.

"oh no! Uncle?!" I quietly hid behind the curtain,hoping that uncle doesn't see my legs.

He softly knocked on the door.
"Nari Honey? Are you awake?"

No response

"I guess she is sleeping, thank lord for that" he commented before leaving.

"okay, Nari is asleep, lets go in" I spoke to myself.

My hand was on the doorknob and I softly opened the door.

Nari was sleeping, but not in her bed...

She was lying on the floor, hugging her knees.

Just like a baby.

I walked towards her and crunched down beside her.

Slowly, I tapped her shoulder lightly to say goodbye, when she started to eat.

"nom nom nom nom nom... nom.."

I looked weird at her.
What just happened?

I shaked my head and smiled.

"bye" I said quietly, standing up when I saw Hani in Nari's bed.

"She was sleeping over?" I smiled and walked towards her.

"Bye Hani, thanks for everything"
Tears pricked my eyes and I knew that I had to leave before I regret my decision.

I quickly ran outside and headed towards the bus station, before I turned around and went another direction.

The direction to Suga's dorm.

It didn't take you long before you were standing outside the door.

Memories of your last visit flashed through your head.

Then you realized, how are you going to get inside?

Oh, Suga just told me that he was hiding a spare key.

I started to search for the spare key, but I couldn't find it at all.

If I was Suga, where would I hide the key?

Maybe...
This rock? I tried to twist it and it opened!

oh yeah! Of course! Suga is always saying that he wanted to be a rock in his next life!
My hand was shaking as I opened the door.

I slowly closed the door and headed towards Suga's room.
The place where everything started.
Where I first met Suga, where we first had our conversation and where he first smiled to me.

My eyes widen when I didn't see him in the bed.

Where could he be..oh...

It didn't surprise me anymore. He was sleeping by his computer, notes were overflowing his desk.
"Idiot" I chuckled.
I put a kiss on his head before getting a blanket.
Slowly, I put the blanket over his shoulders and peered into his face.

His sleeping face was like watching an angel.

I could watch this face forever, but that thought was too good to be true.

My arms were slowly reaching for the back of my neck, unlocking the necklace.

I clenched my hand with the ring in it, slowly kissed my hand and left it on his desk.
Before I could do anything stupid, I rushed outside the dorm, and locked the door.

About one hour later, I was sitting on a bus. Heading out of town, for good.

My ears was filled with calm music.

It was around 1 am, when the city was sleeping, including Suga.

Tears quietly ran down my cheeks as the melody flew in my mind.

The music made my heart arched as I focused on the lyrics.

The song was first love.

He was never in love with you, but the damn piano.

Suga used all his time on the studio to be with a damn piano, that he even wrote a song about it!
Maybe he loved music more than me. It was hard to believe, but when he would even spend night after night at the studio instead of being with me, and ignoring me, that was enough.

Fine that he was doing his job, but was that a good enough reason for ignoring me and my existence for the whole visit, when HE was the one inviting you?!

I was hurt, annoyed and sad.

And I know that I would never leave Suga behind, but now it was enough. What did I do wrong?

Suga wouldn't talk to me, and neither would his band members, with the thought of they didn't like me much.

Okay, I knew that it was a lie with the band members didn't like me.

But I couldn't let my feelings burden them with my own worries.

My watery eyes looked outside the window.
It was snowing.

Today of all days.

I guess it wasn't just my day today.
But today, I realized the distance between me and Suga.

The real distance between us.
Even though he love me, I guess his love for music was bigger.

I thought it was enough space for both of us, but I was wrong.

Maybe I did it easier, or harder for him, but after the way he treated me, I think I did it easier.

Now, I was going to begin a new life with blank papers.

The first thing I had to do is to

Forget Suga

For good.