The Saiyan Bond

Love

Vegeta pov
When I turned around, kakarot was gone and fear went through my chest like a hot bullet.
"K-kakarot?"
Gotens eyes panicked and I felt complete utter fear for some reason that I couldn't figure out. I stood, trying to sense his energy but I couldn't find it, it was as if he had been wiped off the face of the earth.
"K-kakarot!" I leaned towards the doorway, knowing it wouldn't change anything but I guess it was more of an assurance for myself, that my mate was still there. But he wasn't. Where had he gone?
"Goten-you....you have to help....you have to help me find him!"
Gotten grabbed my arm and steadied me, why was I so weak?
"It's okay vegeta, let's just go sit down okay? Let's get some water and cool you off, you feel a little too warm. Trunks can you handle her on your own?"
"Yah I got yamcha I should be okay for now" 
My knees are buckling as every thought in my mind races, too quickly for me to actually analyze it.
"M-my mate-he-"
Gotten hushes me and sits me down on the downstairs couch.
"I'm going to go get okaru. Stay right here. If anything he knows what to do"
I can only manage half of a nod, my eyes are wide and I'm feeling tears trickle down my cheeks.
What's wrong with me
I feel like I can sense kakarots emotions and they are broken ones. Terrifying loneliness. Empty thoughts of illusions and false beliefs that are more frightening to the deeper thought.
"Ngh-ah!" I grasp at my chest and scrunch my shirt, feeling more pain stricken than before.
I fall back onto the couch, the tears becoming overwhelming.
"He-hel-help.." my voice is quiet and I'm feeling flustered, the sir is dizzying and fuzzy and I feel disconnected, unplugged.
"Prince! Prince!" Okarus voice is a little faint in my ears but it soon is back to the proper volume after a quick slap to the cheek.
My eyes open again to see the advisor, grasping my hand and petting my hair, panic in his eyes.
"I apologize for the rash action but I must hear you speak! What did kakarot do?!"
His hand is tight, too tight, he's gripping my hand too tight.
"Ka-left-inst-tran-left-said noth-gone-energy gon-" my heart is beating madly and okaru whimpers a little, before squeezing my hand again.
"He may be doing what I did to gotten, I was irate and irrational, kakarot may be doubtful the same thing. I need to take you to him so we can fix this. If he leaves you for too long, you may die!"
The last sentence hits me hard, as if I was just smacked with a brick.
"D-kaka-will die?"
"Yes. He will die as well"
"Ka-kakaro-no-sav-save him-love him"
Okaru smiles and pets my hair again. "Look how selfless you have become, you are in a periless time, and you think only of your mate. I am proud to call you my prince" and that's when I realize how much I have changed. In all the time that I have known kakarot, I have slowly become a completely different person, I am someone that no longer takes pride in myself but also my children, and the people in my life. My thoughts are almost always filled with things that kakarot has said or done, and I feel so much love for him. I realize that he means everything to me, so this moment right here, right now, I cannot be weak to the occurrences, I need to find my mate, and I need to show him how much I love him. I need to prove to him that he is what he was destined to be and I am his one and only mate.
I feel a small amount of strength in my legs and I sit up shakily, Okaru on my side helping me. My eyes meet the door, and I growl, the way I have always growled when I'm feeling strong.
"Let's-hah-lets find my kakarot-now"
Okaru nods and smiles, wrapping his arm around me as he flies us out the door, towards my home.
-------------------------------------------------------
"Kakarot!!"
"Kaka!"
"GOKU!"
We have been calling his name in this damn forest for at least two hours now, no response. Though I honestly don't expect him to respond if he is truly trying to hide himself.
Then it hits me, when I first found him after chi chi had died. He had distanced himself completely, in a quiet place, very hidden and isolated. I grab Okaru and he follows me through the brush, I don't want kakarot to feel my energy level.
I peer over the brush and see kakarot, standing and staring blankly across the river. He stands for a few moments, grasp his face and starts to groan and cry to himself and it hurts to see him like this, at the same time I don't understand why he is like this.
He falls to his knees and looks like he is bowing to someone but there is no one there.
He balls the sand into his fists and throws it angrily, some of it getting into his hair and now I need to go to him. Now.
"Kakarot!"
His head whips to my direction and his face grows long in sorrow.
"Kakarot!"
He turns, sitting away from me but I'm fast and I pull his shoulder back to force him to face me. Okaru stands diagonal of me, to make sure kakarot goes nowhere.
"Ka-Goku, please listen to me."
He stares at the ground, eyes empty, but I speak anyways.
"I love you. I love you more than anything. Do you know this? Do you realize what you have done to me? What you have made me to be? Can you look into my eyes and tell me that you don't love me? Because I don't believe you are capable of doing so. I need you to look at me!" I grasp his chin and he looks up. I crouch to be at his height now and he stares into my eyes. His black obsidian irises are burning.
"Vegeta-don't you want to be with bulma? Don't you want to never suffer again? Don't you wish to be safe and never fear for yourself?"
I shake my head and grab his shoulders
"No. I enjoy the the thrill of fear and excitement in fighting you-"
"No, I mean the fear. The real horror. You lost your eyes because of me, you were blind and missing your eyes. You were raped multiple times, you were torn in a precious place. Do you really want these things to happen?"
I cock my head, trying to understand his mindset.
"K-kakarot none of those experiences were your fault. When were they ever? They all happened because they were bound to happen anyways. You know that. I love you even more because I'm all those dangerous and scary experiences, you saved me from them. You may have been insanely terrifying to our enemies at the time but you still saved me even if it meant putting yourself in danger. You have always put me first in your life. Don't you see that?"
Something in his eyes change and he looks into my eyes again, and he grasps my chin, and pulls me to his lips, our skin is so soft together, it feels as though I'm kissing a warm cloud. His fingertips burn into my cheeks and I'm afraid that if he lets go I will freeze into the night air.
"Vegeta, I love you so much, I was afraid that I wasn't the best for you, even after all this time I've spent with you I still doubted the very thought that I was the right one for you. I'm so sorry." His words Choke and I know he is crying because I'm crying too.
"Kakarot don't you EVER leave me agin you understand?!"
He sniffs and laughs nodding a yes and wrapping his arms around my waist and pulling me close. I whimper letting all the tears and pain out into his chest and I ball up into his frame, he rocks me like a child and I feel so real in this moment, so existent in his world, he cries harder and leans into the space I occupy and kisses my forehead so gently.
"I'm so sorry! I love you! I'm so sorry!"
Kakarot loves me. And that's all I need in my life.