"I miss you... I miss you so much baby and I need you here..."
I hear my fathers voice trail off as I walk into the hall, he holds the phone still to his face but his mouth drops open.
He stammers trying to find some sort of explanation, I don't care.
"Talk to her if you want, but when she abandons you, I will not even think about hesitating to say I told you so.."
He looks at me with such sorrow in his eyes it hurts. He gives me that sad look that people still give me in the street or at school.... even though its been 18 months. I have to walk away then because the bitch is screeching down the phone about me.
Jai walks in then. Its almost like seeing him for the first time again. My heart flutters as his blue eyes catch mine. Those deep, secretive blue eyes. But there is something there I have never seen before with Jai... hurt ...and helplessness. His hair is ruffled, his face tired and he is beautiful... it takes my breath away. He smiles at my staring, walks over and embraces me... When he kisses me I forget about everything.
His tender warm lips touch mine and part with such care. It arouses the feeling deep inside of me that I had that night...the need for more. So I kiss him back and his tongue finds its way into my mouth. Luckily I don't have that big of a bump, so it doesn't get in the way.
We almost run upstairs and as we get into my room he pushes me up against the door, pulls my leg up so its resting on his hip and grabs onto my thigh. His other hand is tangled in my hair...I begin to sweat.
I push hip towards the bed and he pulls me on top of him so i'm straddling him. I fear that the wait of the bump is hurting him but when he kisses me, with such passion and lust...My mind loses control and I am lost in this magical land of lust.
And then the phone rings. Jai and I both jump up and he answers it.
" Uhu........yes........no.....thank you......have a nice day,goodbye"
I can tell he was talking to the hospital...
"Your next appointment isn't until the fifteenth of March!"
He walks away from me... like he always does when he is blaming me for something...
(Drew's POV)
I walk away.... like I always do when I am blaming her for things. I cant help it. I know its not her fault. But I can't handle that she is leaving me.
She grabs my wrist and shouts at me,
"No! Not this time! I am sick and tired of this! One minute we act normal the next we are told, or have to think about the reality of this situation and you just walk away as if I am a five year old on the naughty step!"
I have to hold back a smirk at her likenening herself to a child, but she carries on,
"You can't keep doing this until the day I die Jai!.." I wince at the phrase. Its the first time she has said it and the reality hits me. "Why do you keep pushing me away?! its not fair!"
Her hair is still a bit messy from five minutes ago, her face slightly red, fire in her eyes. Damn. She's sexy. I am sure I probably have fire in my eyes too. But I am not angry. Just turned on. So while she is still shouting, I grab her waist and thrust it towards mine. Lean down and teasingly hover my lips over hers. Then I just can't help myself and I kiss her. And we return to five minutes ago...
* * * * * * * * *
As she sleeps and rests her head on my bare chest, I think about what's ahead. My baby,my baby girl is going to leave me. The fact that it isn't through choice hurts. Because if it was through choice I could at least try and win her back.
I need to be strong for her. I need to make sure that when knows that when the end does come, that I will be there, and she doesn't have to be worried.
I will be here for JimJam, and her father. Most of all our baby.
When she wakes she yawns sleepily and it is so cute. I look at her and realise just how lucky I am to be able to say that this beautiful girl is mine. And it makes me the happiest person alive to know she loves me.
"Hey baby. Well that was fun."
She breathes the word fun with a rueful smile.
She's breath taking.
(Dads POV)
I watch as the sea crashes against the rocks... Knowing i can't handle it anymore.
She is leaving me. Just like her. And I can't do anything to stop it, again.
So I take a deep breath and lean... lean into the doorway of heaven... where I will see my baby once again. I will see her smile, hear her laugh. Kiss her tender lips once more. I just keep leaning.
The last thought that crosses my mind is Sarah, and then I fade into oblivion.
And she's there.
