Hold me close, don't let go, watch me burn.
Hold me close, don't let go, watch me burn
In this hospital for souls.
Josh (POV)
Oli started breathing really fast and second later he woke up, he had tears falling from his eyes he started shaking and screaming "Ryan" over and over again.
Oli started calling down when the guys left it was just me and him, he was snuggled to me on the floor. "Oli who is Ryan?" i whisper whilst fiddling with his hair.
'I don't want to talk about him, why do you care anyway?" he moved away from me so we were sitting cross-legged facing each other.
"I just do okay" i looked at the floor he's right why do i care? Why do i feel like i have to protect him.
"Its like you love me or something I'm one fucked up bitch josh! I don't need anyone. I just want to be left alone" he looked really angry but there was something else in those big brown eyes of his that i didn't understand. When i didn't move for a while he shouted really loud.
" GET THE FUCK OUT JOSH!"
Oli (POV)
I shoved josh out my room and slammed the door tears streaming down my face, i didn't want to talk about Ryan, Ryan the one who put me through so much torturer my dad. Aren't Dads meant to be caring and love there children ? Nope my dad just punished me for things he did.
I have panic attacks quite often i feel like i will never be able to breath again. Josh was to caring i don't deserve him, i don't deserve anyone, but at the same time i want him i want to feel his body on mine, I'm 15 for fuck sake i shouldn't feel like this. Josh im sorry for everything, im sorry everyone i know im a horrible person it's not like i didn't get reminded everyday from Ryan. As the knife touched my skin i felt a bit better my ugly skin deserved this it deserves everything it gets.
