Imperfections- JLS Aston fanfic

Imperfections Part 2

Part 2

*Cassie’s point of view*

Lying in my bed as the alarm clock went off; my body had never felt weaker. How had I become this obsessive person all of a sudden, all I thought about was weight and body image; and all I saw in the mirror was my imperfections, my fatness…

*Buzz Buzz Buzz Buzz Buzz*

‘Hello’ I yawned looking at the caller idea

‘Morning beautiful’

‘Hey Ast’ I giggled, happy to hear his voice

‘thought I’d catch you before you left for your shoot today…’

‘but its like 5am…you woke up this early just to speak to me?’ I smiled to myself

‘Of course…thought you could do with some encouragement before you headed out’

‘your too sweet’ I replied

‘I know…now im holding you to that meal at Nandos tonight?’

‘I know’

‘don’t go cancelling on me again then….’ He laughed

‘Sorry Ast…I just wasn’t in the mood last night and it really would have made be bloated…it is swimwear im doing today after all…’ I laughed

‘Well your definitely eating a lot tonight…your too skinny, we need to fatten you up a bit’

‘Ast I kind of have to be skinny for my job, and besides, im not that skinny, theres plenty of girls skinnier than me in the modelling industry…im one of the fat ones’ I sighed

‘Don’t you dare call yourself that! You are no where near…your beautiful…’

‘Thanks Ast..look I’ll call you later, if I don’t get a move on im going to be late….and Eliza will have a fit’

‘Fuck Eliza…’ he said forcefully

‘Ast…shes my boss’

‘Well im sick of her making you feel shit, there brainwashing you babe’

‘I can assure you there not, I make my own decisions’ I answered, knowing full well it wasn’t the truth

‘Ok…whatever…’ he sighed

‘But thanks for calling…it means a lot to know you’ll always be there’

‘You know I’ve got your back..’ he said

‘I know…see you later…bye’

‘bye’

Ast was so sweet, he really did care for me and to be honest I don’t think I’d be able to live without him.

Slowly getting out of my bed, I went over to my mirror and looked at my reflection, spending a few minutes picking out flaws and shedding a few tears before I went off to get ready for the shoot. I really wasn’t happy the way I was, with the agency putting so much pressure on me to improve my body image, I’d started to weigh myself at least twice a day…something I’d never admit to anyone…

Turning the shower on and giving it a few minutes to warm up I brushed my teeth before weighing myself on the bathroom scales…8 and a half stone…and 5ft 9…but still not good enough for vogue…still not good enough for the modelling agency…

*a couple of hours later*

‘So…you’re on time for once…..’ Eliza snapped as I walked into the building and was put in the makeup chair

‘Yeah…’ I smiled friendly…that woman scared the hell out of me

I sat in the makeup chair trying to hold back the tears as Eliza spoke to the makeup artist about hiding the flaws on my face and the stylist making hideous comments about my imperfections…no wonder I was so obsessed with my body image…I was stuck in industry of downgrading horror...

A couple of hours later and I was ready on set, hoping the day would go by quicker…all I wanted to do was spend time with my friends…I wasn’t in the mood for photo’s today…

‘Cassie you’ll do half the swimwear’ Eliza screeched

‘Well…who will do the other half?’ I asked confused

‘We have another model…a skinnier one for the bikini’s’ she snarled

‘Hi im Lilly….’ Said a girl, skinnier than me and a bit taller

‘Hi…’ I smiled as politely as I could

My shoot couldn’t of gone any quicker that day, I’d had it with this agency…all they did was put me down…so I had two opinions…I lost weight to keep them happy…or I found another job…and since I still needed to pay for the rent on my apartment…I had no option but to loose weight…

‘Look at the way she poses…and moves her body...you should pay attention to this Cassie…’ Eliza said watching Lilly on set ‘Her body image is perfect for all aspects of high fashion modelling…you should take a leaf out of her book…I suggest you go on a strict diet and join the gym’

‘Ok…’ I sighed

‘And if you don’t…you can say goodbye to modelling’

Watching Lily on set made my blood boil…I’d been in the industry for years and for Eliza to tell me to take a leaf out her book was a joke….she was a rude…obsessive snob, but there was no way out…and I needed to get back to the top of my game…even if it killed me…With or without the help of my bestfriend...