Imperfections- JLS Aston fanfic

Part 11

*Astons point of view*

I’d just poured my heart out to Cassie, and she’d just left me standing there with nothing but a name. Our friendship felt like it had ended just like that…all those years without a single argument, and now she’d just walked out. It was clear she didn’t feel the same way, and now the embarrassment of admitting my feelings for her was going of haunt me for the rest of my life. She was no where near in a safe condition to drive but I couldn’t stop her, her work driven personality had gone too far.

I decided to stay in her apartment for a little while…just incase she came back. So making myself a cuppa, I began to realise that her fridge was still empty, just a single bottle of milk in the fridge door; so then I continued to explore, her cupboards, freezer, and bread bin were all empty…what the hell was going on…I knew something was up…and now with noticing her sudden loss of weight everything was starting to piece together...she was on some sort of diet and I don’t think she’d been eating…

*Cassie’s point of view*

Oh my god…what the hell had just happened….Aston had just admitted he was in love with me…my best friend of nearly ten years. Driving towards the studio with tears dripping down my face I felt heartache for what had just happened. Of course I felt the same way, but I’d hidden it for so long It didn’t feel right to suddenly open up those feelings again, not when he’d left it so long to tell me.

As soon as I got to the studio, I sorted my makeup out in the car mirror before heading inside…

‘Cassie…thankgod you’re here’ I heard Eliza screech

‘I got here as fast as I could’ I smiled as she just smiled back ‘Ive been working really hard in the gym and ive kept off the food’ I said…trying to kick start a conversation

‘Yes Cassie….you can tell’ she smiled ‘But you’re going to have to do it for a lot longer if your serious about getting to the top’ she laughed

‘Really…’

‘Well you didn’t just think you could do it for a few weeks and then be done? you could still do with loosing about another half a stone and then you just need to work on toning up’ she said

My dreams had just been crushed once again, I thought that maybe I’d gotten my body into the perfect shape and maybe I could start to eat little amounts of food again. Looks like I’d be crash dieting and spending even more time in the gym…I needed to prove to Eliza that I was serious about this…

*6 hours later*

It was now 8pm and I was safely back home; the house was so quiet, not a single noise. I had no idea where Aston had gone, probably back to his own apartment…I felt really bad but I didn’t want to speak to him at the moment, not when he’d had a massive go at me and then confessed his undying love…I couldn’t take much more…my head was all over the place…I felt completely worthless…

That’s when I thought back to what Brandon had given me a few weeks ago…the cocaine…and the feeling it gave me…the feeling of being on top of the world…the feeling that I was worth something…that was what I needed right now…

Shaking a little and crying continuously, I went over to the bread bin and lifted it up, taking the small back from underneath and beginning to crush the powder with a credit card…and snorting it slowly…praying it would give me the same effects as last time….

*half an hour later*

I’d done something so stupid…I’d snorted the whole bag….5 times the amount I’d done when I was with Brandon…I thought it would make me feel 5 times better than I did last time…but it didn’t…

Feeling my lungs getting tighter and tighter I attempted to reach for my phone on the coffee table….crawling along the floor but the room wouldn’t stop spinning, a buzzing in my ears. It took me a good ten minutes but I finally focused my eyes and picked up my phone clicking on speedial number 1…Aston…, at that moment in time, I was so thankful I had put him on speedial…I don’t think I’d have been able to call him otherwise.

As the phone rang I tried to get myself back on the floor, lying on my side to stop the drugs from taking its effect, smacking my head hard on the glass coffee table on the way down, putting my phone to my hear…I was suffering badly and loosing blood fast…

‘Look…Im sorry if I gave you a shock before…maybe its best we give it a few days apart’ he said…his words buzzing through my head

‘A...Ast…..’ I stuttered

‘Cassie are you alright….?’ He stuttered

‘Help…’ I breathed blacking out, my hand flopping to its side beside me as I lay on the floor unconscious

‘Cassie….Hello…..Cassie?.....OH MY GOD….CASSIE…..CASSIE CAN YOU HEAR ME?....’ he echoed a long silence of panic ‘IM COMING OVER…PLEASE DON’T TELL ME YOU’VE DONE SOMETHING STUPID…’