Imperfections- JLS Aston fanfic

Part 4

*Cassies point of view*

‘Im just gunna pop to the loo’ I smiled, trying my best to hold the tears in

‘You want me to come with?’ Chloe asked

‘No im fine babe…I’ll be right back’ I said quickly getting my bag and leaving to find the toilets before I broke down.

Luckily there was no one else in the bathroom; so locking myself in a cubicle I put the lid on the toilet and sat down. My head in my hands as the tears began to fall. I was under so much pressure I felt like I just needed a release from it all. My mind was constantly telling me I was worthless and my insecurities were my own worst enemy. That’s when the idea hit me; what if I made out to Aston and my friends that I was eating properly, but in reality the food wasn’t getting the chance to hit my waist line. That one stupid idea in that moment of weaknesses would lead to many more problems in the future.

*I’ll join first thing tomorrow and I promise I’ll be in a better shape by next week..x* I text Eliza back

I was Reading and re-reading the numerous text messages I’d had off Eliza causing me to be conscious of body image and thought there was only one way to please both my work and my friends. That’s when I did the unthinkable and caused myself to be sick, repeating it until there was nothing left in my stomach. Tears streaming down my face as I wiped my mouth with a piece of toilet paper, I steadied myself to my feet, despite shaking like a leaf…

*30 minutes later*

*Astons point of view*

Where the hell was Cassie? She’d been gone half an hour now and I was seriously starting to get worried.

‘Maybe she’s just on the phone or something?’ Chloe smiled

‘In the toilet?’ I asked confused ‘Chlo can you just go make sure she’s ok?’ I pleaded

‘Fine…’ she smiled

*Cassie’s point of view*

‘Cassie? You in here?’ I heard someone shout out, It was chloe

‘Yeah…’ I said swallowing my tears

‘Was just wondering why you’ve been so long, Ast was getting worried’ she said and I just remained in the toilet cubicle, biting my lip in an attempt to stop crying quick

‘Your not ok are you?’ she sighed just as I unbolted the door and popped my head round

‘No’ I stuttered

‘Babe…whats wrong?’ she said embracing me in a hug

‘Its just stress’ I gulped ‘Everythings getting on top of me, and theres this new girl who Eliza is really keen on and she’s taking over some of my shoots’ I sniffled

‘I think what you need is just a night to forget about it all’ she smiled ‘Why don’t we get rid of those mascara trails down your face, go back to the boys and hit the town…it’ll make you feel better’ she persuaded

‘Yeah I think that’s good…but can you do me a favour and not worry Ast...he worries at the slightest thing now…I don’t want him worrying about me’ I smiled

‘Sure’

At that point in time I was really happy that Chloe had been there; I was 100% sure she didn’t hear me throwing up before, but I still could realise how silly I was being. For tonight I was going to forget about everything, turning to alcohol in order to have a goodtime…

‘I was getting worried…where’ve you been?’ Aston said

‘Eliza phoned me about some potential job opportunities…had to answer the call’ I smiled

‘Cant she just leave you alone for one night?’ he sighed

‘Apparently not’ I smiled ‘Now are we still up for that night out?’

‘Yeah’ he smiled

The first club we went to was relatively smaller in size, but the v.i.p section just as glamourous as the others. We did about 6 shots each in there and two drinks before moving onto the next one. What I had thought about, was that now I had an empty stomach, and alcohol on top of that…things could only get worse…

*3 hours later*

‘I think you’ve had enough’ Aston giggled, clearly a little drunk with the alcohol

‘Nope…’ I said downing my 10th shot in a row

‘You wanna dance?’ asked a tall dark stranger standing next to me

‘Sure’ I slurred turning to face the stranger

‘Are you sure that’s a good idea…?’ Aston asked

‘Ast I’ll be fine..’ I winked

‘He’s not your boyfriend is he?’ the guy said lifting one eyebrow

‘No…he’s just a friend’ I smiled walking off into the heaving mass of bodies to grind away with this guy

*Astons point of view*

‘Yeah…just a friend’ I sighed. That’s all I’d ever be….