broken glass

say you're sorry

WARNING;MATURE CONTENT! S M U T!

Thomas didn't know how he had deserved someone like Newt. He wasn't even sure this was all real. It seemed to good to be true. It had only been a month since He and Newt had started dating and it all went so fast. Thomas didn't really have the chance to think about it. First of all he didn't understand how this even happened. How did Newt manage to get to him so fast. After more then 10 Years of putting up walls and masks. 10 years without a friend or someone to talk to Newt had managed to get to him in the period of a week.

He still hated himself for letting it happen. Sooner or later Newt would be tired of waiting and he would want answers. Why he never talked, why he didn't have any friends, why his dad hated him so much, why he didn't want to talk about his past. Most of all Newt wanted to know what had happened to make him like this. he never asked about it but he would give him hints all the time. When he would tell Newt it wouldn't take long before the boy ran away from him. And to be honest Thomas couldn't handle that cause it was gonna hurt him. It was going to add another crack into his heart.

The brunette had sworn to himself he wouldn't let it happen. He had sworn to himself he would never start caring about the boy. But even when he tried to deny it, he had started caring from the day Newt had sat with him. Maybe that was the answer to it all. From the day he had started putting up his walls and masks no one had even tried to talk to him they all immediately left him alone. They didn't care. No one even tried. Newt had tried. And he wouldn't have given up. Thomas knew that if he still hadn't talked to Newt by now the boy would still be sitting with him every day at lunch. He wouldn't have given up until he had what he wanted.

Thomas didn't want to talk with the blonde. Newt always wanted to talk. They would sit somewhere and Newt would try to bring up a conversation. He didn't want that. He just wanted him by his side. He was fine with Newt just being in his arms and kissing him.

He could not start caring about the boy and he definitely could not start loving the boy. He just couldn't. It would just lead to hurt. Like it always does.

So now Thomas  was sitting at the Coffee shop with Newt, Minho and Teresa. Newt was sitting in his lap, leaning back against his shoulder and his head resting against his as they watched Minho and Teresa argue with each other. He had his arms wrapped around the blonde's waist holding one of Newt's hands.

"Minho! Are you serious? everyone knows Wicked is the best musical ever! How can you even think otherwise?"

"I didn't I was just kidding!" Minho said, laughing softly. "I could never think otherwise."

Teresa gasped. "You totally made me believe that! you're evil!"

"Says the girl who hates puppy's!"

"I did not say that! I just said I liked kittens more then puppy's!"

Minho pouted adorably. "But how can you think such thing."

"Minho, Now you look like a puppy," He gasped at that, faking a hurt look. "At least you're a cute puppy."

Minho smiled widely at that, taking a sip from his coffee. "Well thank you, Teresa."

Teresa rolled her eyes fondly.

"Why are we even here." Thomas whispered to him.

"I was thinking about the same thing just seconds ago." Newt said amused. "Clearly they don't need our company."

Thomas just nodded in agreement. Newt sighed, he obviously didn't want to start a conversation... like usual. Newt didn't complain well at least not out loud. He was fine with Thomas' company...Just having his arms around him and kissing. But he wanted to get to know him. Cause to be honest what did he know about him ? Yes he knew his name and where he lived he knew he was an only child and his parents were away most of the time and some bad things at happened in the past. But that was it. Newt realized he didn't know Thomas at all. While the other knew pretty much every single thing that had happened in his life. They had been dating for a month now and still Newt had the feeling he didn't know his boyfriend. He had tried to push the feeling away but he was obviously falling in love with the dark haired boy. Newt knew he should get his hopes to high. Thomas would never stay with him. For the most Random things he would shut him out and ignore him until the next day. He'd apologize over and over again but in the end he did the same thing.