Optimism & Peaches

I Try

I try to be as happy as I can. But sometimes, I fail. Today happens to be one of those days. All I need to do is think of it and then I'm sad.

It sucks, that feeling of wanting to cry, actually crying, wanting so desperately to find a release but you can't.

Ever since I started this book, there have been days where I want to tell you guys that no, I'm not happy. I'm not okay. But this is a positivity account, if I made you guys sad because of the things I say, how can I live with that?

But I've realised that I need to be honest with you guys as well. I treat you all as my family, and family don't keep secrets from one another. There are days when I am really happy, but in that same day my mood can completely drop as well.

When you guys say the sweetest things about me that I have heard in, possibly, my lifetime, it's a bittersweet feeling. Because I try so hard to be positive to cheer you guys up, but at the same time when that fails on myself I get so frustrated.

This sadness made me think of you guys. It breaks me to think that you guys go through this too, probably worse than me.

Sure, it is frustrating when you're so happy and one simple thing can make you go back to Square One, but trying to regain that joy in your life is soso important, even if you fall again, never give up.

It is okay to say, "I tried". It doesn't mean you're a failure, it doesn't mean that you're not good enough. It means that you are someone who doesn't just simply accept what life hands you. You work hard to get back your happiness when life snatches it from you. You make mistakes but you learn from them and trudge on. There is so much power behind these two words, and you should never let anyone determine how much effort you have put into trying.

I'll be saying this phrase the rest of my life, I don't think it will ever leave me, so that's why I'm gonna embrace this phrase and encourage myself to keep trying and to never give up. Even if the encouragement doesn't work, keep trying.

Ilysm guys I hope you're always happy, healthy, determined, spreading love and being loved. Have a great day/night ahead!!