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chapter three.

June winter.

As soon as diner was over I headed back to my room, and lied down on my not so big but very comfy bed. I sighed thinking about how I'm spending my birthday. I've had some calls from family and a message from an old friend but since they live far away there was no way they'd come to visit me, and with me I actually mean my mum since they only wish me happy birthday and continue to only talk to my mother. And instead of partying, like every other young adult/teen does for their birthdays, I spend my birthday at home reading, writing or listening to music. I'm not complaining though, I like to do it. But knowing that nobody actually cares about how you feel is a bit dissapointing..

It's only 7:30 but I'm already really tired so I decided to take a shower and get ready for bed.

"June" my mum calls when I'm just about to lie down. "june honey, I have a present for you." I turn around to walk to my mum who is sitting on the sofa with the biggest smile on her face, why so happy? I sit down in the chair opposite of her and accept her present. I quickly unwrap it and a small smile appears on my face. A box with new novels, a bigger notebook and a smaller box with pens in it. I have to admit, it's lovely. I didn't ask for anything really but I knew she was going to buy something and I'm relieved she didn't get me the usual boring stuff like jewelry, gift cards and parfume, because I'm really not into all that. I thank my mum and give her a hug, which surprised not only her but me too and head back to bed. I grab one of the new novels and start to read, a great way to end your day.

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I wake up with the worst headache ever, I look at my phone to see that it's only 6:15AM. Lovely, I must have been woken up by my nightmare because I feel that my cheeks are hot and sticky from the tears. I'm not suprised this happened because I wake up crying, a lot since two months ago. My thoughts go back to that month and I feel all anger and sadness coming back. I wish I could just forget what happened. I shake my head to try to at least less the scary memories and get out of bed.  

Time for the usual morning rituals, I always eat breakfast at first but i don't really know the reason behind that. I walk to my kitchen and make my self a cup of tea and toast two cheese sandwitches. My mom already left for work, as usual so I sit alone at the dining table staring outside of the window. Good thing about this apartment is that we have a nice few over this small city. When I'm done I head to the shower and take a quick shower, I only have an hour before I have to leave my house and knowing me, I'll be in a hurry. After, what I find short, a ten minute shower I try to fix my always too messy hair, which completely failed so I put it into a bun. I rush back to my room to grab, suprising, black skinny jeans and a grey sweatshirt. My style is pretty boring, I own four pairs of black skinny jeans and two pair of dark skinny jeans so I'll always wear them. Then my shirts, hoodies, sweatshirts, jumpers and all other kind of tops are also quite dark. I like colour but then dark red green or blue. I don't like to be in the center of attention, so you won't see me in a bright neon light kind of pink t-shirt. But even though it's a bit boring, I like my style. It's simple and comfortable, that's important right? After I'm fully dressed I grab my small make-up bag and adjust a thin layer of foundation on my face, do my best to draw a thin line of eye-liner on my eye-lid and put some mascara on. Ready to go. 

It's just my second school day but I already look up to it. Another long day of stuff I actually don't care about. While I'm on the bus on the way to school I grab my little notebook and start to write with the time I have left until I arrive at the university. I think back about the past and think about things in love that happened so I start to write about something I wish I had. someone to love

I need someome who will make me 100% happy. who will be here for me in good and in bad times. someone who also will be my bestfriend. who will make me laugh when I need to. and gives me his comfort when I need to cry. someone I can talk to when I need to talk, and who will actually listen. and who will fill the empty hole in my heart. who is willing to fight with and for me, but never lets go. Someone that I'm comfortable and myself around. Who I can share happiness, sadness and love with. who understands me and love me with his whole heart, all so I can finally do exactly the same. 

And I hope I will find him soom because right at this moment I need someone who will hug me tight and tell me everything will be fine, and so I know I will be save. 

-- authors note -- 

Hii! 

Hope you like saved so far, I really enjoy writing it so I hope you'll keep reading so I can continue to write this story. Also, please tell me what you think of it and if I should change something. it would really help me :) 

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