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chapter thirteen.

June Winter

When the bus stopped at the right place i saw Harry standing outside. I stepped out and walked towards him. He was dressed casual, black skinny jeans some old boots and a grey sweater and his army green parka I absolutely love. No matter what Harry wears, it looks good on him. I shouldn't be thinking this way but I can't help it. "Hi" I say almost whispering as I stand in front of him. "I really apreciate it that I could come here Harry" I smile at him and I can see the concern in his eyes. 

"It's okay, Let's go inside and talk?" He asks politely. He's so sweet. I nod and follow him towards his house. he unlocks his front door and let's me walk in first. What a gentleman.. Nobody's home obviously. 

"Are you home alone?" I ask. I suppose he still lives with his parents. 

"Yeah well, my mum and stepdad are out for diner. They should be home soon, don't worry they don't mind that you're here" He smiles. Well i hope he's right, I don't want to feel unwanted. I sit down on his couch in silence while Harry makes us a cup of tea. I'm freezing so I need it. After a few minutes he sits down beside me, we sit down in silence for a while before I decided to speak up. 

"So there is something I should tell you, I actually never wanted to tell anyone before who didn't know but I can't keep it inside anymore now that I'd done something stupid again." I stop for a second to see Harry's reaction. He looks confused and worried. "Since you're basically the only one I've been talking to lately and since I know more things about you that you about me I felt the need that I had to tell this to you. But please promise to keep it to yourself?" he nods and I sigh before I continue. 

"I'm just gonna start at the beginning so you'll understand" I smile and continue my life story. "When i was six my parents got divorced, my dad moved to france to build up a buissnes there and I only spoke to him once a week on the phone since he was always busy. My mum worked her ass of to care for us both which she luckily did well. I was a very shy kid, I never really talked to many people and I only had one friend Max. I told my mum a lot about him and said he always ate diner with us, which got her worried. There never was a kid called Max at our place. the thing was, I made him up, I pretended that Max was here so I could have a friend. He was there until I was 13. Because then my mother had send me to a psychiatrist to talk about him, i realised that if I wouldn't stop acting as if I got a friend by my side than they would label me as crazy, so I had to do other activitys to do in my spare time so that he would leave. it worked, i didn't made up Max anymore. So with that my childhood already was a big confusing mess, it only got worse." I look up from my lap to see how Harry was doing. Luckily he didn't look scared, he actually was listening and had this caring look on his face. 

"When i was fiteen I started to be very closed, but I did manage to get myself a boyfriend later on. It didn't last long though. I trusted him and my so called new friends to fast. He cheated and they only hang out with me because of him. This is where it all went crazier. i started to get abusive, at first not towards people but towards things. I punched walls and threw things through glasses. I was a mess. I also was fighting sometimes if people where insulting me, i just couldn't handle it. I had to change schools more than once, but it just didn't work. a few months ago, when I came to this new school where we at now I promised myself to don't trust people too soon, thats why I was so weird towards you in the beginning. My problem onlt was that I trusted the wrong people and didn't trust the good people. I Also never wanted to fight again. I had anger management for a while, which worked. But tonight it went wrong again, thats why I am here." I feel my eyes burning, bringing up all these memories is hard. I never really showed emotions to anyone, but around harry it's different. He does something to me, unnoticed and i can't figure out what it is. 

"What happened?" He asked quietly, looking worried. 

"I told you about my work and Alan right? That he tried to kiss me but I got away?" He nods and i smile a bit, thankfull that he remembered. "After work today he talked to me, but in a weird way. he wanted to hurt me and i hit him, hard." I look into Harry's eyes scared for his reaction. He stays silent. "It was self defence right? I know it's still wrong but I couldn't let him hurt me." Please harry say something. I now feel a tear rolling down my cheek. While waiting for an answer from harry he does something unexpected. he pulls me into a hug and wipes away the tears. 

"I don't really know what to say yet, I'm sorry. But it's alright, don't worry he must had deserved that punch." He softly rubs his hands on my back comforting me. I never thought I'd ever be in this position, having someone to actually be here for me. I look up at his face and smile a bit. 

"Thank you Harry

-- Authors note --

Now you know a bit more about June :) Hope you like it so far. xx