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chapter ten.

June Winter.

Fear

A small word everyone knows. fear of heights, fear of snakes, fear of darkness, fear of others and I think the worse one, fear of yourself.

Afraid of that who you are isn't good enough, that you'll never be better than.. scared of your own thoughts when you do something wrong, blaming yourself for things that happen.

Fear is something you can win from, you just need to believe that you can do it.

I put the pen down and close the small notebook. the weekend has flown by and I was not ready for school yet. But since it was 7AM I had to leave my bed. I sigh and get out of bed, dragging my legs towards the bathroom. I let the hot water of the shower run while I take off my clothes. I always shower on it's hottest. After ten quite short minutes I step out of my shower again, brush my teeth blow dry my hair and put on a light layer of foundation. I draw a thin line of eyeliner on my eyelid and ofcourse some mascara. not even going to try to put on some lipstick, because that always fails. I walk back into my room with the big towel around my body. For what seems like hours I stand infront of my closet deciding what to wear today. I don't really have much to choose from but it's still hard.. I go for one of my black skinny jeans and a bordeaux knitted jumper. When I arrive in my living room my mother sits in front of the tv, still half sleeping. I suppose she has her day off. "morning" she greets me happily.

"Goodmorning" I say back. Quickly making myself some breakfast and lunch for school before leaving the house.

On the way too school I get lost into my thoughts, again. I think about Alan. He was a nice guy, He still is. but he kinda ruined it by trying to kiss me so fast. I just don't like that at all. It's not that I now hate him, I just don't want to be kissed anymore so I'll keep distance.

When I finally arrive at school I see Harry standing in front of the school doors. From the moment I met him i'd been rude to him, or I just did as if I didn't care. It were my thoughts that made me do that, I thought he would be trouble. While all he did to me was being friendly. Why did I had to be such an idiot.

"Hi June" Harry says to me smiling. He obviously hasn't got any problems with monday mornings.

"Hi" I say to him, doing my best to sound as polite as possible. "had I fun weekend?" I ask him. surprising not only him, but also myself with this question.

"Yeah, it was good. Did a lot of sleeping" he says laughing a bit at the end. I look up to him and smile. "How was yours?" He asks back.

"Alright. Loads of sleeping as well" I say still smiling. Harry nods and points at the door, saying that we should probably get to our English class.

"You were waiting for me?" I ask when I realize that Harry stood there all alone talking to no one and not making his way towards class until I arrived.

"Yeah" he looks down to me and smirks.

Maybe Harry isn't so bad as I thought.

-- Authors Note--

Hi!!

HARRY IS FINALLY HERE MORE

I'm excited to write about harry more from now on, I got loads of things planned so stay tuned!

Xx.