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Chapter 5

MeyRin's Pov (Age 17)

As the days went by, anyone with eyes could tell that I was growing weaker, and I had coughing fits multiple times a day. Ferid was helplessly trying to get me to complete my transition into a full vampire, but I still refused.
"I don't want to be useless to you." I said.
"You won't be. You'll be useless to me if you're dead, which judging by your current state I would say you will be in a few days.
"I can't. I'm sorry." I said.
"Why do you care so much if your useful to me. I'm not going to throw you out, if that's what your worried about." Ferid laughed.
"No it's not that. I just won't have any purpose if I become a full vampire."
"I-" Ferid started to say something but I cut him off.
"I can't okay? I just-" I was cut off by my violent coughing, and I fell to my knees on the floor. Ferid dropped down beside me.
"Cmon, you're going to die if you don't drink human blood. I won't let that happen." He said.
"I don't want this." I said. "I don't want to live a life of eternity without anyone having any use for me. It sounds stupid, I know, but I like being able to give my blood to you, it makes me feel like i'm worth something to you."
"You're not just a blood bag to me, not like the livestock outside. That's why you're in here." He said.
"I said I don't want to be a full vampire. I can't live like that. Just leave me here."
He noticed the necklace that he gave me hanging around my neck, and took the key in between two of his long fingers.
"Tell me, why did you keep this all these years?" He asked.
"Because you asked me to." I said. I didn't understand why this was relevant.
"Well now I'm asking you to keep living, stay next to me." He said.
"That's not the same thing." I said.
"Why is it so different. I asked you to keep something safe, and you have. Now I'm asking you to do the same thing, but with your life. A much more important thing, in my opinion."
"It won't be if I become a full vampire. You won't be able to drink my blood, I'll have to drink human blood, which means there will be less for you in the grand scheme of things. I can see no benefits to me becoming that." Struggling, I managed to get up and crawl into my bed.
Ferid looked like he was going to say something, but I guess he changed his mind because he left the room, slamming the door behind him. I heard the click of his boots down the hall slowly become quieter with each step he took, until I couldn't hear them anymore.
I curled into a ball, hiding my face in the covers. I'm not exactly sure why, but I cried into the pillow, until I eventually fell asleep.

3 days later.

I was still in my bed. I hadn't moved, and my body was so weak at this point I couldn't if I wanted to. I welcomed the idea of falling asleep and not waking up. I knew it wouldn't be that simple, and it would probably be miserable, but I didn't care. I didn't want to live as a vampire, I didn't want to be worthless to Ferid. I'll admit that I had grown to enjoy spending time with him probably more than I should, and hate to say it but I had grown to enjoy the feeling of him drinking my blood. I don't know why, but I had become very attached to the noble.
I started to feel very ill, and began choking and throwing up blood onto the floor. I guess Ferid heard me, because he can into my room with a small vile of blood.
"No. I'm not drinking that." I choked out.
"You may think that, but you're wrong." He said. I put my hand over my mouth, and rolled away from him, so I was facing the wall.
"Please, MeyRin." He pleaded. I rolled over to look at him. My eyes were watering from coughing so hard, my hand still clamped over my mouth. I shook my head, before I leaned over the side of the bed and started coughing again. When I was done, I was about to cover my mouth again, but Ferid grabbed my arm and pinned it to the bed. He took the lid off the vial and poured the blood int his mouth, before pressing his lips to mine. I guess he figured that I would never willingly drink it. I squirmed under him, and tears came to my eyes. When he pulled away, I yelled at him.
"Why would you do that?!" I wiped my mouth, hopelessly trying to get rid of the blood that was on my lips.
"Because I'm selfish. I did it because don't want you to leave me. I want you by my side, that way I'll never lose you." His eyes were dark, and they frightened me a little. I stared at him angrily, tears streaming down my face.
"Well congratulations, you lost me anyway." I pulled on the necklace around my neck, so hard that the clasp broke, and  threw it to the floor. I pushed him away from me, and stormed out of my room, down the halls, and out the door. I'd like to say that he ran after me, begging me to come back to him, pleading for forgiveness. I'd like to say that he ran up to me and pressed his lips to mine, and I instantly forgave him, like every cliche romance novel ever. But that would be a lie.
He didn't follow me at all.

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