Vents

Daydreams

(You know who you are, and im sorry, but if you are reading this, i know you love him, but i love you)

I have a wish. Only a single wish and it would make my life so much better for it to come true. I've fallen for this girl, and my god she is perfect. I love her so much and... I'm speechless about how much i do. I'd give you anything, love, anything. All I can do is dream. I dream of her and me being together. Daydreams, real dreams, dreams of my future, she's all there. i constantly think of scenarios of me being with her, doing what i would do with her. I love her so much, but there's a huge problem. She doesn't love me back. We're best friends. She's the closest person I have had since my father passed away.

No... please... go away dreams... stop haunting me. Please... no... here it comes

I looked down at her in my arms. She looked back up and smiled. a funny feeling came across me and I felt lightheaded. She was so beautiful, kind, and sweet. I loved her more than anything, and I never even wanted to move from this spot. My body felt warm, it was so weird, but I loved it. I smiled back and my face felt really funny.
"I love you." I told her.
"I love you too." She responded.
We continued sitting there, not paying attention to anything but the person with us.

I couldn't keep it in. I wish my dreams wouldn't haunt me like they do, but there's no stopping it. I'm in love and the dreams constantly bother me. All I want anymore is her. I'm a fool and i would give anything for her to be mine.
No... not again... please stop... you don't make me happy anymore.

"Hi love!" I sent through Skype
"Hey!" She replied.
"So... umm... I have something i really want to tell you." I said. "And please don't hate me for saying it."
"Alright..." She told me.
"I love you." I sent. I immediately regretted sending it.
"oh..." She replied.
"I'm sorry." I immediately sent back
"..." She responded
"No! Please don't be upset with me. I'm sorry." I sent back.
".-." she sent.
"I'm sorry, okay!" I sent, tears coming to my face
"Candy..." She sent
"I said I'm sorry..." I typed, beginning to cry. "Please forgive me..."
"No." She sent.
The blood ran from my face and i started sobbing in my room, on my bed, with my computer on my lap.
"..." She sent after
";-;" I responded
"I..."
I didn't respond
"Candy..." She sent "I have a confession."
"..." i replied, letting her know i was there. I was still crying, but i let her know i was there.
"I..." she sent. "I love you too."
Immediately, my tears stopped. I sat there, stunned. I typed the only words that came to mind.
"Oh my god..." I sent.
Happiness enveloped me. I was so happy and i wanted to scream out of joy. The depression i had was broken, and i just wanted to run where she lived to hug her.
"Do you really...?" I asked
"Yes." She sent. "I really do."
"That's... That's the best news I've ever gotten in my life." I sent her
"Is it really?" She asked
"An angel just said she loved me. The love of my life just said she loved me. You... You, the love of my life and the girl of my dreams, An angel, Just told me she loved me back. Nothing, and i repeat nothing, could ever be better news to me than that."

"No, stop, enough of that." I said to myself, waving away the dream.
I know I'll go insane if i think of that anymore, though now that i think about it, it never stops, i already am insane. All i ever think about is the fun we could have if she gave me a chance. I didn't fall for her because i liked her, I fell in love because i could see me with her for the rest of my life. Like honestly, i could. I could see myself in bed, cuddling her as i fell asleep. I could see myself actually being able to be myself around her. I could see myself teasing her and it ending up with her in my arms. When i see her, i see her as somebody i know i could have fun with no matter how old we get.
"Stop, no, your going to make me go insane. please..."

I looked down at her and i smiled. She had a mischievous look on her face and i thought it was so adorable. she was looking at me with her and i decided to tease her. I poked her nose.
"Boop." I teased.
"Nu!" She laughed
She started squirming in my arms with little squeals coming from her. I held onto her, but she escaped. I poked her on the side.
"Ow!" She said uncomfortably. she looked upset
"Oh im sorry." I said. 
I was really upset i upset her. I hugged her tightly. She began to laugh.
"Never let your guard down!" She said.
She poked me and the playful feeling returned.
"How could you!" I said and let her go. "Why you cute little..."
I poked her again and she laughed. She started poking me back and we were teasing each other like the children we were. We were both giggling and i was enjoying every moment of it. Eventually, i grabbed a hold of her and plopped down on the couch behind me pulling her down with me.
"I love you Syra." I told her
"I love you too." She said, and we sat there in each others arms until we fell asleep

"Stop it! Leave me alone you twisted dreams. I couldn't make her happy so I gave her somebody else!" I said to myself
"Oh Bryce, you do make me happy." the dreams say.
"Leave me alone!" I said.
I got a vision of me holding her under a tree. I looked down at her and saw the beautiful brown eyes she had.
"Stop!" I said to myself.
And then i got a vision, and i couldn't stop it no matter how hard i tried. We were standing and i was looking into her eyes. Her beautiful brown eyes. She leaned forward, closed her eyes, and kissed me. When the vision stopped, i sat in my bed silently.
"I love you." I said, and i started sobbing miserably.