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true friends

"look you just have to shove the tooth brush up his ass, it's not hard." debby shrugged watching as jenna laughed, laying on the floor while tyler was holding a toothbrush against joshs bum who was currently, on his knees like a dog.

"debby, stop giving tyler ideas." josh pleaded looking back at her.

"no debby keep going." jenna laughed throwing a sock at josh's head.

they had been like this for a while. after they left the park they all walked to jenna's house. they all got to know debby better and vice versa. they all shared bits about their past, leaving out the most important parts. they all got to know each other better. josh had been laughing more then he ever had in a very long time. with jenna on his left, tyler on his right and debby laying across all three of them, he was at his happiest. they all talked about icecream and taco bell.

but right now they had gotten to talking about who could shove what up their ass. debby got gogurt, jenna got a burrito, tyler got a microphone and josh originally had a drumstick but that's been changed to a toothbrush after they found 5 of them at jennas bedside drawer.

"jOSH WE ALL JUST SAW YOUR BLUE DUCKY UNDIES OHMYGOSH," jenna yelled hiding her eyes from the sight.

joshs cheeks automatically darkened, as he quickly got to pulling up.

"those undies are sick! wanna see mine?" tyler asked as a small laugh escaped his lips.

"nOno one set of undies being seen today is good enough!" debby exclaimed as she broke into a fit of laughter.

the girls ended up laughing together on the floor while tyler merely chuckled and watched them. josh on the other hand was mildly embarrassed as he pulled up his pants hitting them both softly over the head.

"oh shush it you two, yours can't be as beautiful as mine." josh said dramatically flipping his imaginary long hair.

"you wanna bet on that, cotton candy hair?" debby challenged sending a smirk towards josh

josh put his hand to his heart, "excuse me missy, my undies will forever be better then yours."

"actually josh, I'm siding with debs on this one. her undies are so much better then yours." jenna nodded looking at josh with raised brows.

"okayokay so what im getting from this is that you think debby has better undies then i do?" josh asked playing with his fingers.

debby smirked at him, "told you i'd win"

their conversation got interrupted by a ring, erupting from debbys phone. she excused herself and walked out of the room to talk on the phone.

the others decided not to listen in on her conversation and instead just continued arguing about their undies.

minutes later debby came back into the room saying she had to go, like right away, and that she needed jenna to drive her to her home. only jenna though which was weird, seeing as they had all become really close.

watching the girls leave made joshs mind turn, 'what are you waiting for, cause someone could love you more..' it sang over and over. he didn't think much of it seeing as he laid his head in tylers lap.

"tyler?" he questioned the boy, looking up at him.

"yess josh?" he responded poking joshs nose with a small smile playing on his lips.

josh chuckled quietly, "thank you for becoming such a close friend, i feel like I can tell you anything. you know what I mean?." he asked tilting his head slightly.

tyler just nodded, running his hands through joshs blue hair, "i feel the same way so it's fine. i mean, you've become like my bestfriend, I've never really had a bestfriend so I don't know how this works." he whispered slightly

"you've never really talked about your past."

"neither have you."

"I think you should."

"you should too."

"But you first."

"fine."

tyler took a breath and looked down at josh, "okay so I suffer from BPD, or in other words, borderline personality disorder. its been something I've been dealing with as a kid and it really gets me. one second I can be at my happiest then I have the worst fucking mood swing. everything was fine and I was learning to cope with it but then the bullying came. the crying, the fighting, moving, and finally divorce. if two parents have trouble with a suicidal child, how would one parent be with the same child. but it's whatever now, just know if I act, different it's not me. it's the blur, the change in me."

"your blurry face. it's not you, but it's a messed up copy of you."

"exactly, its blurry face."

after the small conversation there was a comfortable silence. josh had learned something about tyler's past. he learned about tylers struggles.

"hey, um tyler. you wanted to know about my past so I guess ill tell you."

tyler listened intently as he learned about how josh had dealt with suicidal thoughts, being self conscious, and the suicide of a former girlfriend.

"wow, dude you didn't have to tell me that." tyler exclaimed, looking up at the white ceiling in wonder.

"we all have things that we keep secret, might as well reveal some." josh shrugged closing his eyes, a peaceful sense overcame his thoughts. he always had a fear of telling people about his past and them taking it a wrong way. he's glad he finally found someone who understands about his struggles.

moments later jenna burst through the door, breaking the peaceful atmosphere. "we have to talk, like right now."

josh immediately sat up, looking at her with wide eyes.

jenna got right to the point as she looked between them, "listen, a certain friend of ours is in a bad relationship. and I think we should help her out."

"jen, how do you know she's in a bad relationship?" josh bit his lip looking at her.

"okayokay so I when I drove her to her house, I saw that there was a dude outside, waiting for her to get to him. of course that's perfectly normal but when she actually got to him he pulled her inside, by gripping her arm with one hand and her hair with another. now so you believe me?"

"well fuck.."